new job

I am apparently having a new job right now. have been in manufacturing industry (manufacturing panels for aircraft), banking line and now i am entering a new industry yet again. jumping of one another i am currently working for oil and gas company. to be surrounded by oil and gas people, never have i thought of being one of them.

For just a week of this ne phase after having zara, i must say it's quite hard. for i have to leave zara for babysitter and not having a chance to wake up late with her besides. as for the work, it has been hectic. i previously have a honeymoon 1 or  perhaps 2 weeks when started new work life. well, im good with it as long as the pay is good. haha.

zara have difficulties of her first week at babysitter since she got herself an ulcer and the body tempreture is quite high. but above all, i have to admit this is the sacrifices.

oh well, i am in the office doing overtime. this is just a quick update and i have to get back to the workloads that continuously came and messed up my table.

till then

quick review as always

well, it's always been awhile since i last update this blog. dah ada anak sibuk dengan anak je. tak sempat nak menjenguk blog and update. (alah,bkn ada yg baca pun btw)

wow...

the last entry was in dec. i have had to update on some of things that happens in

January: ayu's wedding reception and Bandung short trip
Feb: Singapore and USS.
March: lembaga menakutkan in house and zara is turning 6mos and already making her mum busy handling her meal ready on time.

this is just a quick review so that i wont miss to catch up later or perhaps im afraid of forgotting things. Banyak benda nak fikir sekarang. nak kumpul-kumpul maklumat and pictures baru boleh update kan??

zara tengah tido ni. tadi ingat merengek masa dalam buaian nak bangun dah. rupenya mengigau kot bawak turun baringkan dia pi sambung tido balik pulak dah.

December of the year: wishlist

December has finally arrived. this month is very special of all other month in the whole year. every year, i've always waited for this month to come. this year, December doesn't seems too far. many had happens throughout this year. I've delivered my lovely angel Zara Idzuin the picture above.

so perhaps i just notice that most of my wishlist is about her. (lame) of course la as a mother, she always want everything to be given to her child.mostly of her first year, she hasn't got much things for herself kan? most of the time i found myself doing research what zara's needs that have to fulfill untill i forgot what i actually need for myself. does all mother really have the feeling like i do?

so, anniversary is last month. i'll get something special according to husband. excited over it. can't wait. oh well, here i am to review what else for this year wishlist. nothing much i could say.

Longchamp bird design bag

(already on the way from mama. peace)

Victoria Secret Body Mist

(come to no surprise, husband bought for me yesterday)

all time favorite: chocolate brownies

well, both my wishlist already fulfilled in advance you see. birthday is still another 17 days more but my wonderful people already bought the birthday gift. they just can't wait aren't they? mengalahkan birthday girl pulak (girl lagi ke? dah jadi mama girl dah ni). ok lah, seems that no gift will be given to me during the birthday alright but thought i could have another wish. can i get my favorite brownies chocalatey cake on the date of my birthday. not in advance and not later. haha.

motherly life

life has been hectic for me eventho i am just a housewife at home with little baby girl. life as a mother for even just this one kid had made my life filled. i am now contended with all that i have in life. i feel almost perfect as a woman to have been a daughter, wife, and now a mother. i wasn't even ready to face all this drastic changes in my life but guess i don't have to.

being a mom and having faced the hussle bussle of it, i tend to find myslef learning and mostly GOOGLE-ing about how to become a good mother and to solve most of my problems. we ought to have a stroller or pram for baby zara. for once i realize that it is a needs because we're going to have to carry her everywhere on earth that we'll be.

zara first flight - she got 10kg for herself and that 10kg was occupied only with her stuff u see. her travel system stroller and carrier. luckily we're in MAS not Airasia cause our stuff altogether has excess with 6kg.wow.. we're late for every reason. mostly because we're still a new parents and i as a person who never knew how to manage a 53days old baby have had to force myself to act like one. nasib mama ada to help us though.

her first stroller that we've bought and still using is esprit sun pluss 11. the stroller is weighted 7.5kg.umbrella like when folded.and her carrier is weighted 3.5kg. we've been using the stroll for about a month now. it still very useful to have to stroll it here and there. yes, it really ease our live aand daily routine.

for a normal human being i have this attitude that most of others had. i went to search about other parents review about strollers that they have. some have more than 1. then, i thought. not that i want to be like them but i suddenly feel like we need a lighter and easier to handle of stroller. yeah, just then i've been eyeing how husband need to bend to fold the stroller that i have to carry baby in hand. how can i made  it if i were to be out with the baby alone without hubby?

then, i saw that combi have the most credit. then i continued to learn about their products. ok, i study all of their products and i think well comfort just suits all my needs and the baby.unfortunately the price is a bit expensive. we just feel that it's kinda too much for just a baby carrier aight. zara have had her own carrier cum car seat cum rocker, stroller and sling. if we were to just add some of those it shouldn't be too expensive. first i thought that my aim for combi will ends there. at least not till i found this one website that sells preloved stroller.. was so relived with eyes wide open!

well, come to my surprise well comfort was not in stock. i was sad. i told them that if they were to have it please do let me know. i thought it might be quite some time for them to come back to me but just my luck after 2 3 days i received their sms saying they have one in stock and are selling it for only RM 395 including postage. i am very happy right now. the day they sms me i just feel that that particular day was so flowery (sukati aku je buat ayat). haha. over

i am waiting for the parcel to arrived. i can't wait!!! bestnya. the products is ultra lightweigh as u can see in the product description above. its weighted is only 4.5kg even zara is heavier and one hand fold. so, i bet i won't have any difficulties to have to carry zara aside while folding the stroller. reversible handle which our esprit stroller doesn't have, we currently just put zara's carrier inside the stroller making the stroller looks even bulky and heavier (stroller + carrier). well, both stroller complete themself, couldn't say more. tak sabar nak test drive combi well comfort yang ada full canopy tu.

p/s: tak nak terlupa update wishlist december ni haha. wait and see

bundle of joy : let's enjoy confinement!

seperti mommies yang lain selepas bersalinkan anak kita yang comel tentula kita akan melalui fasa yang dikenali sebagai berpantang. aku pantang di melaka rumah parents kat melaka. seawal 29th week of pregnancy aku dah balik semenanjung. sempat la puasa, raya semua kat sana.tinggal la husband sengsorang kat labuan.

ok. nak share sikit la pengalaman pantang. mostly nak share dos and donts yang aku kena buat al kisahnya.

aku memang memilih untuk dijaga mama sendiri senang kan nak reques apa lagipun lebih selesa. tapi seminggu juga berpantangg di rumah mertua di kl.

antara yang paling terkenal dan rasanya semua orang pun tahu bentan adalah yang paling dielakkan semasa berpantang ni kan.antara sebab bentan ada 2 sahaja setakat yang dibertahu orang tua-tua la.

1. jaga ibujari kaki.jangan tersadung or terlanggar apa-apa.
2. jangan silap makan benda sejuk,berduri,berbisa,or melingkar/menjalar.

menu harian aku selalunya;

sementara jahitan belum baik aku jaga sikit tak makan ayam or yang mungkin akan menyebabkan gatal. Alhamdulillah jahitan aku baik selepas 8 hari dah cantum.

ikan tenggiri atau ikan selar kuning masak singgang atau digoreng kering.sekali sekala aku makan juga ikan kering.pernah sekali makan ikan cencaru ada orang kata ikan caru ni tak boleh makan masa dalam pantang, tapi aku makan ok jek.ikan senangin pun orang kata tak tak boleh nanti angin Alhamdulillah ok juga aku makan.

minuman aku hari-hari milo panas je la. duk tengok adik aku minum milo ais feveret pun aku duk teguk milo panas bayangkan konon minum milo ais. haha. boleh kan?

air halia o. mula tu payah juga nak minum tapi bila dah kena sekali terus jatuh cinta. sedap juga halia o ni.sebelum ni kalau nak minum halia bukan main payah lagi biar aku sakit perut berangin-angin dari duk kena minum air halia. mama bg seratus ringgit pun aku memang tak nak minum la.lepas bersalin ni minat pula.

susu enfamama and air masak pun aku minum. air masak memang kena minum banyak-banyak terutama mase menyusukan baby kita memang la jadi kerap haus dan cepat lapar. aku makan sehari berkali-kali sampai mama duk tanya sedara aku boleh ke orang dlm pantang makan banyak. dia takut aku bentan.

biskut kering memang santapan aku setiap pagi dan jadi kudapan setiap kali terasa lapar.

air kopi ke teh memang tak berani try.ade sekali minum kopi, zara tak tido malam pastu hyperactive gila.aku yang gelabah terus serik tak nak minum lagi.konon nak kelainan sikit la tapi lain lak jadinya.

ayam dan daging aku start makan lepas jahitan baik dlm hari ke 8 dan keatas.mase tu rase heaven sikit la kalau tak hari-hari duk mkan ikan je. ayam goreng kunyit la jadi feveret mama masakkan letak sawi.memang sedap. sup ayam atau daging pun aku makan.pizza pun aku bedal juga.tp sekali je la yg papperoni tu semua daging je tapi kalau pizza hut punya chicken soup cecah garlic bread memang aku punya favorite.dkt rumah in law pun in law ada bagi makan ayam kfc. hehe

seafood selain ikan mcm udang,ketam,sotong memang aku tak berani makan.

sayur pun yang aku makan sawi sahaja.takde sayur lain.sesungguhnya aku memang sangat takut kalau bentan sampai mama cakap aku yg lelebih pantang dari dia. haha.dia kata suruh buat biasa je jgn pikir-pikir n takut-takut sgt.

aku pakai set bersalin orang kampung hari-hari kena makan jelly gamat de.Alhamdulillah cepat baik luka aku. ada juga kawan aku subba bagi pati ikan haruan 6 botoll dalam tu 6 hari aku makan habis.kat tempat luka mula sapu ubat kuning kemudian sapu gel antibiotik doc kasi.memang cpt je kering parut pun mcm xde.bekas pun.aku memang jenis tengok luka tu sebab nak tahu mcm mana besar luka kalau tak aku jadi risau lebih-lebih sebab pikirkan luka tu besar la itu la ini la.padahal sikit je.ubat pakai sendiri tengok guna cermin.

antara air-air yang dibenci para mommies ubat periuk dan air kunyit.dua-dua aku dah merasa. ubat periuk set orang kampung tu sedap.sebab ada juga jenis ubat periuk yang pakai akar atau herba yang berbeza-beza.so ada yang xsedap bau n rasanya.air kunyit sempat minum sekali katanya bagus untuk baikkn luka dalam n kecutkan rahim.sepatutnya 3kali kena minum waktu pagi.

dalam kebanyakkan makanan yang mama masak memang mama banyak campur bawang putih,halia dan lada hitam supaya buang angin.memang aku dan zara kuat kentut masa dalam hari. bagusla kan sehat.

lepas bab menu mkn dan minum, beralih pula dkt berurut. korang semua urut berapa kali? haha aku punya cerita kelakar. plan nak 3hari je. tapi penyudahnya disebabkan perkara-perkara yang banyak tak dapat dielakkan. aku berurut sampai 12 hari selama dlm pntang dan dengan 5 tukang urut yang berbeza-beza. tapi paling puas hati mase urut penutup walid jadah ke balikjadah ntah ikut style jawa keturunan aku maknanya pulih seperti sediakala la.dgn zara zara kena urut juga.

mandian pula macam mana? aku memang manja sikit sampai darah nifas abis dalam hari ke 35 memang mama yang mandikan kecuali kalau mama sibuk atau tak sempt je. cuma memang jarang sekali,mama selalu ada siap tolong jiruskn lagi. ok mandi air daun-daun kan?kat laman rumah ada tanam daun pandan gan limau purut je. so pkai 2 daun tu shj.memang segar.air mandian tu suam-suam.tapi bila dah nak hujung-hujung tu aku mandi sendiri n kurangkan sikit suam tu biar sejuk sikit supaya lepas pantang nanti badan tak terkejut nak mandi air sejuk.oh ya, tapi masa pantang rumah mertua aku mandi sendiri je. mandi air suam biasa minta husband tolong jerangkan air and campurkan air dlm besen sebab aku takut nak angkat or buat keje berat-berat.

berbengkung memang aku amalkan dari awal sampai habis pantang.bengkung set orang kmpung memang puas hati.dia ada param dia tapi aku tak guna aku gunal gel dola cantik je.Alhamdulillah mujarab juga.

pilis pun ada dalam set bersalin orang kampung tu. memang aku guna kebanyakan hari tapi kadang skip juga.

stoking memang pakai selalu.seluar aku pakai da 2 hari terakhir sebelum tu memang pakai kain batik la manjang.sweater awal-awal rajin pakai makin lama makin malas sebab badan panas sangat.

bertungku pun aku amalkan juga.

Alhamdulillah selsai juga 40hari pantang dengan jayanya.berat masa nak bersalin 52kg lepas dah bersalin berat turun 40kg sekarang ni.

Bundle of joy: birth of zara idzuin

Zara Idzuin binti Rudy Idzuan

born in September 13th 2012, 9:19am

normal delivery

weight of 2.55kg

48cm body lenght

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11:30pm - lebih kurang waktu mcm ni kedai mama dah nak tutup,memang aku hari2 rutin dtg kedai duduk,mkn n tlg apa yg patut.dulu msebujang pun mg aku la yg buat air kat kedai.tetibe rase mcm ade lendir keluar ak pegi cek ditemani mama,rupenya da ade tanda kecoklatan.tapi aku fikir maybe lama lagi la sebab aku punya cousin ade yg da keluar tanda darah lagi tapi belum pun bersalin.so, aku buat xtau je la. Malam tu balik rumah aku tido pakai pad.

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4:00am - baru dua jam aku tido dah tersedar sebab rasa mcm nak ke tandas.mama teman n tgk ade tanda coklat tu lagi.kemudian bile nak tido semula terasa mcm sakit perut permulaan sengugut.tak lama lepas tu aku rase makin sakit.sakit yg teramat.aku cakap mama tunggu esok pagi jam 8 klinik buka nak pergi cek.kebetulan pula esok ade appointment juga dgn klinik desa.

5:00am - aku mengalah. Dah sejam aku tahan sakit makin menjadi rasanya.semakin kerap sakit tu datang.sampai aku mengeluh ngeluh. 'sakit ma.aduh sakit ma.' dah meracau racau.mama suruh aku istifar byk drpd meracau.aku terus nak bertolak ke mahkota medical centre (mmc).mase ni aku da cuba call husband beberapa kali tapi tak berjawab sebab dia masih tido rasanya.aku nak suruh dia awalkan ticket yang de dah beli untuk esok hari sebab cuti panjang kan memang da plan de nk balik.cuti hari malaysia. 5:30am - dah sempat sampai mmc yg terletak kat bandar melaka.nasib baik pagi kalau waktu office hour mesti jamm.Allah permudahkan. Alhamdulillah.mama tolong registerkan untuk aku walaupun masih belum dpt contact husband.nasib dia tinggalkan credit card utk kami register.aku dah nekad kalau mmc tak terima aku terpaksa terus ke hospital besar melaka pula.nasib baik semuanya dipermudahkan juga.aku dibawa terus ke wad.mase ni aku sedang bertarung nyawa mengerang kesakitan yang amat sgt smpai tak mampu nak luah dek kata kata.aku hanya mampu byk berdoa dan berzikir dlm hati. Nurse amik berat sebelum ak baring di katil, berat 52kg.

6:00am - nurse dtg untuk pasangkan alat at perut untuk cek jantung baby dan sekali gus cek bukaan.baru 2cm.nurse ckp dkt mama maybe husband sempat smpai sebelum aku bersalin sebab anak first lambat biasanya.1cm sejam utk bukak.maybe dlm ptg nanti baru bersalin.nurse tak kasi minum air selusuh,air zamzam atau apa pun selagi belum 10cm sb nanti sakit lg teruk.mase ni husband pun da bgn dari tido n dah return call balik tapi aku tak mampu nak ckp sebab sakit contraction dtg sentiasa hanya berhenti 3minit sahaja.aku kena tunggu doctor pula dtg cek bukaan lg dlm jam 8 pagi sebab doc akan operate patient pagi tu biasanya.husband cuma cakap sabar banyak banyak dia dah on the way.aku dah tak mampu berfikir dah.

7:30am - sepanjang mase tunggu doctor dtg buat visit, aku sakit contraction sampai mengigil2 pegang bantal.bertukar-tukar posisi sampai beberapa kali juga ditegur nurse sebab jantung baby tak berapa elok maybe dia terbelit tali pusat.aku amalkan zikir yang toksu beri 'uizuhu wahidu sumadu yusra'.mase doctor liu datang utk cek de tengok aku macam sakit sgn meringkuk sampai.he doubt my ability to deliver normal sebab bukaan baru 2cm mcm mana aku nak bertahan smpai 10cm? So dia cek dulu bukaan and it's already 8cm. Dlm mase tak sampai 2jam bukaan aku dah buka byk memang tak percaya.doc liu kata "patutlah dia sakit sangat.labor room now"

8:00am - nurse dtg dgn wheelchair utk bwk aku ke labor room.sebelum tu aku dah diberi ubat cucuk bontot 2 lepas masuk je ubat tu aku terus bersihkan isi perut.waktu ni doctor semua dah uruskan patient yang bersalin operate.deorangda ade appointment. Aku ni kire case mengejut.kalau doc liu xsempat kena doc vincent yg sambutkan baby aku.dr liu operateorg bersalin kembar i think he's not gonna make it sebab aku da xtahan sakit sgt.mase ditolak ke labor room aku minta nurse bagi mama masuk tp xtau kenapa sampai kesudah mama tak masuk-masuk.aku sorang.tapi biarlah waktu tu dahtak mampu pikir.nurse tanya suami mana aku hanya mampu cakap husband baru nak naik flight.i know deep down he's not gonna make it tp aku masih berharap.de ckp de nak masuk labor room sama dgn aku.tapi tuhandah aturkan.aku terpaksa redha. Masuk labor room je stafnurse cek bukaan lagi.pastu terus call doc tanya doc mana yg dah nak siap doc liu or vincent.so doc da diberitahu ade patient tunggu deorg akan terus turun right after theoperation.

8:40am - aku tanya nurse jam pukul berapa sebab aku dah tak tahan nak kencing.tapi stafnurse tak kasi aku kencing sebab de rase nanti anak aku terkeluar sb mase masuk je labor room memang aku da ready bila-bila mase je.bukaan da 10cm.aku masih berselirat dgn tali di perut.sekejap-sekejap kena tukar posisi sebab jantung zara tak berapa kuat takut lemas.nurse pasang air kat tangan then aku diajar cara bernafas yg betul mase contraction.it works.tapi aku masih tak henti baca zikir dan selawat.sakitnya sampai bengkok badan aku menahan sakit sebab aku dah rasa zara akan keluar kepala die da betul-betul berada di bawah n kakinya kat atas.mase ni aku terdengar stafnurse call bilik operation doc vincent tgh finishing maybe tgh jahit kot.

8:50am - aku tanya lagi jam pukul berapa.doctor utk baby dah sampai.doc karen perempuan cina.tinggal tunggu doc vincent sebab stafnurse call de da on handset.tapi masih takangkat phone.so stafnurse tu assume doc da on the way terus ke labor room.dia da siap-siap pakai baju mcm rain coat tu.yg lain pun sama.kemudian nurse sorang tu inject kat peha kiri dia kata utk kuman ke apa mcm tu la.aku pun dah pasrah time tu org nak buat apa buat la.aku ikut dan dgr je.asalkan selamat.kemudian stafnurse terus pecahkan ketuban.sebelum ni de tak nak pecahkan ketuban sebab takut zara terus meluncur keluar.

3minit selepas tu doc vincent masuk labor room.akhirnya.... Lega aku rasa.kemudian dgr deorg ckp breech la tak boleh la apa la.aku mase tu da strt mengerang tak tahu mcmmana nak teran sebenarnya.tapi kemudian dgr doc vincent kata chin up.boleh normal.she can push.terus nurse and stafnurse bg galakkan utk push.aku tak tahu macam mana aku boleh senang terima dan paham masa nurse cakap push,aku terus push kemudian terasa macam nak tarik/lepas nafas tapi nurse terus jerit 'lagi.panjang-panjang.' apa yg panjang pun aku tak tahu tapi aku terus teran lama-lama.Alhamdulillah sekali push zara pun keluar jam 9;19am.terus terkeluar 'Allahuakbar' then nurse senyum cakap Alhamdulillah. Kemudian dgr suara zara nangis.masetu dah tak fikir apa lega teramat kalau tak maybekena operate nasib baik zara kecik 2.55kg sahaja.memang rare case.maybe sebab tali pusat terbelit jadi zara da mengeliat mase contraction tu sampai muka dia yang keluar dulu.

Doc karen terus sambut zara.aku tengok dia jolok hidungdan mulut zara.kesiannya.kalaulah papa dia ade sekali menyaksikan.kesian husband tak sempat sampai.mungkin ade hikmahnya tu.kemudian terdengar bunyi air turun mase doc tekan-tekan perut untuk keluarkan uri.terasa mcm keluar baby gak besarnya tu hehe.tapi dah xkesah org nak buat apa da.kemudian doc karen bawak zara sebelah aku untuk aku cium and de tunjuk alat kelamin zara. Doc vincent da mula start nak menjahit sebelum tu dia minta permission inject bius sikit di bahagian nak jahit tu.so total 2x injection la.tak sempat pun nurse nak tanya epidurak ke apa ke aku punmemang tak nak request kalau boleh.mula tak terasa sangat tapi bila zara keluar dari labor room tu je bau terasa mcm ngilu sikit la ditarik2 kat kawasan tu kan.bila masa doc gunting tu pun aku tak perasan sebenarnya maybe mase aku tgh sibuk fikir mcm mana nak push tu doc da gunting.tak da class apa pun utk tau careteran tu cuma orang kata jgn angkat bontot n tekan leher.aku memang tak angkat bontot sebab katil dia khas ade penahan kaki jadi kaki memang terletak cantik n tangan aku paut tepi katil.memang automatik bontot tertekan ke bawah.leher tu aku tak sure katanya takut berbekas kalau teran kebawah kena angkat tapi aku tak reti la.maybe aku da siap-siap angkat kepala nurse pun xde suruh angkat kepala.

Sambil doctor jahit sambil kami berbual rupenya doc vincent jiran setaman dgn mama.then nurse tanya aku sakit ke doc jahit tu.aku ckp sakit contraction tadi lg sakit.so nurse tu ckp kat doc de salute la aku patient yg tahan betul sakit tu xkeluar suara terjerit-jerit ke apa kalah org lain yg lebih besar n berumur dr aku.tak padan kecik.aku just senyum n ckp nurse juga yg ajar suruh selawat lgpun time selawat dlm hati n bernafas dgn betul ssh la nak keluarkan suara n berckp byk2.aku tanya doc jahit banyak ke.5jahitan sebab zara face presentation tapi daripada czer doc kata lebih baik awak normal jahit sikit je. doc kata dia guna benang yg akan meresap kat daging so tak payah risau jahitan nk bukak ke apa.lepas jahit tu doc minta kebenaran nak seluk keluarkan darah beku lagi, de cakap akan sakit sikit tapi ok ok la aku rasa tu.

Keluar dari labor room husband da atas flight phone da off.tapi lepas de turun kat kk rsenya sb flight de labuan-kk-kl.aku pun xsempat tanya byk de ade kesempatan je de terus call.dalam jam 3ptg baru husband sampai mmc n bawak baby ke katil aku.husband qamatkan anak,dia nak tanamkan uri mama kate beberapa kali pesan mama abah jgn tanam de nak tanam sendiri.kalau boleh memang semua dia nak buatkan.tapi apapun semuanya dengan izin Allah.malam tu husband yang teman kat hospital sebab discharge esok tghari.semua org pelik tengok aku bertenaga je smpai ade nurse muda tu tanya, "tak sakit eh kak bersalin?tengok akak ni mcm baru lepas lumba lari je mcm biasa je." ye ke? Tapi aku ckp kat de sakit tu memang sakit la.tapi tak tahu apesal mata tak nak lelap tak rasenak tido pun walhal malam sebelum tu aku tido 2jam je.orang pun tak putus call.Alhamdulillah syukur semuanya selamat.

hanya tuhan sahaja yang tahu perasaan melahirkan hamba Allah ke dunia ni.betapa besarnya pengorbanan seorang ibu ni.sebak bila terfikir.masa tu rasa sayang sangat dekat mama.mama kata aku at least senang juga  bersalin sakit tak lama.masa dia macam-macam dugaan.itu pun aku rasa serik and trauma juga sebenarnya tak dapat dibayangkan kalau yang lagi sakit dari aku yang kena tahan sakit lebih lama dari aku.bahagian masing-masing kan?aku selalu fikir macam tu.tuhan tu kan maha adil. maybe yang sakit kena tahan wad berhari-hari tu husband dia ade sekali.mcm kes aku pula husband jauh tak sempat nak ada sama sebab tu tuhan permudahkan perjalanannya.apapun aku bersyukur dan redha.semoga kami dirahmati dan diberkati sentiasa. amin ya rabbal alamin.

bundle of joy : having zara in me

it was after our honeymoon to Bandung Indonesia and it was right after new year. i felt something strange in my body and my mens hadn't yet come guess it was just a normal change for a normal just married woman so i took some jamu to help the mens to come but not a chance. when arrived Labuan me and husband decided to had a UPT test so we did. fortunately it was a positive sign. try it two times and the result still the same.guess we need to consult a doctor and we did the next day.

doctor had asked me to stop taking the jamu and he scanned the tummy maybe it's still really tiny we cant see any. the doctor wants us to come another week cause my womb is already getting bigger but he cant tell yet cause the symptoms of getting a period will also made my womb getting bigger.

so the next week i went to another clinic to scan the baby and now we managed to see our little angel, i'm already 8 weeks that time. only God knows how wonderful the feeling was. not to mention we still in shocked and couldn't believe that we're going to have a baby and really start a new family.

from that moment i can't wait to know her gender, to feel her kicking, and everything. well, as other mommies have felt the morning sickness i do too. it wasnt good but i try to tell myself to stay positive about it even if it's hard. i got this feeling of nausea over rice, asam pedas, seafood even i do love asam pedas so much i just cant tolerate it anymore. so i don't know what to do, i cant fill my stomach and there i got gastrix. doctor gave antacid only cause pregnant mother cant simply took any medicine. cuba juga makan asam untuk hilangkan loya, tomyam, and fresh oren then my gastrix got worse until i was going to get admitted in ward just because my keytone's getting high. tapi aku berkeras tak nak stay 2 hari tu. husband would like me to stay but i still dont want to, so husband cakap doctor that he will bring me back another 2 days untuk tengok thp keytone dan air dlm badan sebab aku terlalu kering. pregnant lady have to drinks lotsa water. luckily 2 days after that i'm doing good. right after that i know i can only tolerate meggie cup. at least that's the only makanan yang aku boleh telan. asam aku gantikan dengan gula berangin, it works.so ku tak akan kena gastrix dgn elak makan makanan masam tu. oh ya, honeystar memang selalu ada dkt dgn aku sbgai kudapan sb aku kerap lapar. muntah2 still ada biasanya malam tapi kadang2 ade juga pagi tu muntah2.

ade org tak boleh bau husband la tak boleh tengok muka husband la but as for me it's diffrent sebab aku suka sgt tgk muka husband maybe kata orang sebab anak dlm kandungan tu perempuan so dia akan tertarik pada lelaki dan kalau anak dalam kandungan tu lelaki dia lbh cenderung untuk suka tengok perempuan dan kebiasaannya ibu yg ngandung anak lelaki tu suka tgk muka sendiri di depan cermin. ini aku terrbaca je tak tahu betul x.

every month i went to scan the baby. morning sickness cuma berakhir pada 11-12 weeks of my pregnancy. around that time aku dah berada di europe untuk honeymoon kami yang kedua.balik dari travel i went for a check up to check whether baby's doing great. ternyata aku agak byk bergerak n jln so baby punya position di atas uri, low lying but the doctor said it's only 16 weeks nothing to worry cause baby will accordingly change the position over time.so aku rehat secukupnya, minum susu enfamama coklat banyak2, jaga pemakanan,kurangkan buat kerja berat dan berjalan dan paling penting berdoa banyak2.

Alhamdulillah the next weeknya i went for another check up sb nk scan baby's gender da xsabar.doctor kata dah tak low lying and baby is a girl. betul kata orang tua2 naluri ibu tu yang sebenarnya paling tepat.during this time aku dah rasa zara's kickings siap ada rakam video lagi.too excited no words can describe.

setiap bulan berlalu mcm biasa until in Ramadhan aku akan balik semenanjung untuk bersalin di melaka. kena mintak surat doctor since baby is already 29th weeks. naik air asia xsilap 27-31 weeks kena ade surat kebenaran doctor and kena isi borang dr air asia mase nk fly tu nanti. so we did it all and managed to fly to melaka with the accompany of my parents sebab husband keje tak boleh nak ikut sama.as arrived melaka buat check up di klinik gov melaka je la.

masa mengandungkan zara aku memang kuat makan. in 35, 36th week ramai orang ckp perut da nampak ke bawah sgt n ada yg ckp nmpk mcm lelaki sb perut kedepan.maybe deorang xnmpk aku sbnrnya mengembang kot tepi sb aku ni kecik je.da nk bersalin pun berat baru 52kg shj.aku suka sangat makan kari masa mengandung ni.nasib baik juga tak de mengidam benda-benda pelik. ade pun aku nak kek batik sarawak, sagun, dan gula tarik. gula tarik je xdpt tp Alhamdulillah zara xngences pun. hehe.

ini lah pengalaman mengandungkan zara untuk ingatan aku sama.

from Europe with love

Salam and Good Day!

I had a wonderful experience to be shared here. Been to my Europe trip this year March, 8th until 20th. It was like a dream come true for me.

Kelana Convoy was our tourist guide for 9 days and the remaining days we were in London on our own.

For the first day as we arrived in Paris Orly airport we straight away took a van to the train station to catch our Eurotrain from Paris to London. We already did a prebooked ticket to we can't miss the train. Sadly, we missed it but fortunately it's not our fault since the train took off early before the said time. We were so glad that we didn't have to get another new ticket cause it will caused us half a thousand. it was cheaper to made a prebooked online. the train was cozy and comfortable.

As arrived in London, it's already late evening. We have to take a cab to our hotel. we stayed in Ventures Hotel in Sussex Garden. We then went for a bus tour around London but it was the last bus tour so we didn't manage to get ourself down to tour here and there on our own. The next day early in the morning we have to catch our train to Old Trafford, Manchester. Husband made a prebooked train ticket from London to Manchester for the 4 of us which is me,husband, cousin keon and brother adib. We're in Virgin train for about 2 and half hours. the trip to Old Trafford was a day trip and we also went for a tour to the stadium. It was husband's dream come true.

third day, we ought to gather at a park as a pick up point for Kelana Convoy. there are almost 60 people for this trip and it was nice to actually met with new friends. All of them are Malaysians that studied in Japan, works in Abu Dabi, and most of the others stays in Malaysia.

It all then starts tour with Kelana Convoy. We only paid around 550 pounds for that 9days trip tour to 6 countries and they covered our accomodations and meals. We had nasi lemak, meat curry, and other Malays cuisine. Sedapnya!!!

Ya Allah, too much to be told. ok, let's just cut this short. you can also visit kelana's convoy site for more informations. http://www.kelanaconvoy.co.uk/ and you can also find and add them in facebook. kelana convoy.

6 countries consists of touring to London, Netherland, Belgium, Luxembourg, Switzerland, and Paris.

There are so many interesting places that we had went. I was so happy that i finally get to see Eifel Tower with my own eyes. Alhamdulillah. i thank god for this oppurtunity. husband had made very hard effort to make my dreams come true. I love him and i knows that he loves me too.

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Update of new phase in life

It's always been awhile since i wrote here.well, not so much to share. Apparently, i was just at home jobless and still hunt for a job. I'm expecting so the husband would love if i slower down hunting for jobs at the moment.so, now i just wait for government o call me since i have updated my applicaion already and they did. I need to sit for an xm next saturday. Let's just share about this coming weekend that i'm looking forward to. Well, gonna have pizza hut tomorrow (public holiday,harvest day) with husband,begining to hunt for tailor that could sew my baju raya, watched the avengers and on sunday i have my next appointment with doctor for ultrasound! Yeay gonna meet our little angel. Excited! I've already feel the baby kicking,dancing,aerobics n etc. What much can do in Labuan? Sometimes i just love to spend the weekend at husband's office or just lie lazily at home watching movie. Fortunately, now we've discover this one warung that have delicious and almost similar mee bandung like muar's mee bandung. Most of the evening we can be seen there having dinner. ;) This is just an update of my life here in Labuan.

Eagerness

Previously,
Marriage was just a dream for me.
I bet for every other girls out there.
It has been the lifetime plan for the big day.

Now,
I'm entering this new phase in life.
My dream had finally come true.
And i finally found a guy that was meant for me.

Previously,
Paris was just a place that i diely wanna be.
I always remember how i fancy eifel tower.
How i wish that i could have a picture of me there.

Now,
I begin yo realize that miracle always happen.
At least i know now how wonderful the feeling is.
That now i have the ticket to be there at once.

Alhamdulillah. I am praying a lot for this coming journey that i've been looking for,would run smoothly. I couldn't ask for more. I thank my husband for his efforts to have made all the preparation. I love him with all my heart. When everyone else is still searching for the right person in their lives, i had found him and am so glad. Above all, he is the dream come true for me.

2011 preview

January of the year. the brother's marriage. at Kuantan and Melaka. Alhamdulillah everything went well though we've been busy with the wedding arrangement and mama had to undergo operation for she had met with an accident during along's big day. Not even the whole family but the neighbourhood had traumatized with that incident. mama's story been told in one of the local newspaper 'metro' if i'm not mistaken.

the family for Kuantan's side

February of the year has been wonderful cause the month is the shortest month as compare to others. well, I've been working with Ambank since Dec 2010. busy with training and stuff on Jan, and Feb is when i start doing real job as a personal banker there doing sales. I had an enjoyable moment there with the branch staff of Ayer Keroh. They are very good to me. We have an event during February as our local activities the picture below shows our event for chinese new year.

with Ambank Ayer Keroh branch staff

March of the year. i have love my life,my job and getting prepared for my wedding end of the year. So, been to Johor to met with my bestfriends there and also went for friends wedding reception back in Pontian.

bestfriends: ayu,nazra,me and jiah (from left)

April and May.(since i can't find any picture for April. hehe. so i just combine) i notice that it's always about my job. well, this job is kinda fit me but i hate target cause it's hard to achieve.seriously. so, te picture below is the picture of our event for the month doing outside marketing.

with Ambank staffs

June. the month i've been waiting for. We Went to Puket, Thailand. the place is so beautiful. feel like wanna go there again. went there for only 2 days and have to rush back to Malaysia cause of work. there's an important convention for sales people of Ambank. well, it's sort of worth sacrificing for cause the event was held at marriot hotel. If not because of this convention I might not have the chance to stay there. pfttt ;p



Something good also happens to me during this month. israq mikraj, 29th June I have accomplished my past 4 years resolution. You all can see my new image that I'm comfortable with right now.



my best cousin got engaged during this month in batu pahat johor.

at Phuket with them

I, Ambank staff at marriot hotel





cousin's e-day at bp

July and August. Ramadhan for muslims. had went for several free break fasting from customer and clerical staff of Ayer Keroh branch had their bonus and treat us this lovely iftar. well, when officer got their bonus we also went for makan-makan again for iftar.

Eid-ul fitr at enstek sepang and batu pahat johor. this year merdeka day and hari raya fall on the same day. unfortunately i got no leave. haha. well, i had enjoy working there during raya. nevermind.

iftar with Ayer Keroh staff

with younger sister and the cousins

September also one of the month that i've been waiting for cause i had to travel to Bandung Indonesia and i have to admit that i had already fall in love deeply with this place untill to the extend as soon as i got back to Malaysia i booked another ticket to Bandung for my honeymoon with the husband. though the plan been screwed since the husband didn't notice that the passport will expired less than another 6 months. i can't tell how frustrated i am but that is past. we're going there again this New Year 2012. he made it up at least.

at bandung with them Ambank Ayer Keroh and Semenyih staff

October had been hectic for me. every of my weekend had been filled with so many activities especially for preparation of the wedding. the very bff had organized a surprise bridal shower for specially for me. i feel so blessed. thanks a lot to them. one of the surprised given by my ex bestfriend since i think she's no more my bestie la during this month it was a news of her getting married the next day of my wedding day. she already promised to be the bridesmaid gile gelabah nak jadi sangat pengapit pastu ntah apa-apa last minute baru bagitahu. well go to hell with that. Important is at least i know who stood by me during my big day. thank you family and friends.

my best cousin got married on 9-10-11 at batu pahat johor.

bridal shower

ella's reception at bp

November was my big day. 19-11-11 was when i got married to the love of my life and that was when I entered to a new phase in my life. very big beginning throughout my entire life. though obstacles are so much had comes along the way i am proud to say that we had stayed strong together. thanks to family and friends for all the big help and for those who love to condemn and spread so many bad influence about this relationship and marriage, thanks cause you are just making me realize how i have to stay strong and not to fall of your so called judgement. i give a damn but to take it as a chance for me to prove that you're all wrong.

the bridegroom

December is my month. I always fall in love with december. during this month i'm already in Labuan missing the family that i leave back in Melaka. The picture below was taken at KK when i attended the interview with Bank Muamalat. still a job seeker right now i haven't found the job yet.

the cake was for my birthday. husband bought it for me. brownies chocolate, always my favorite.

mcD

the cake

so this pretty sum up everything. the year of 2011 will ends and i will not be around and will only be back next year. we will be going to Bandung, Indonesia on 31st we suppose to arrive 11:59 at bandung but air asia spoilt it they reschedule our flight to 7:30pm and will arrive approximately 9pm there. well, actually who cares? at least i got to go bandung again. i don't think i have any resolution for 2012 except for having a job that i could fall for. amin. that is not a prayers that i pray only during new year, it was my prayers every other day.

Above all, i have already satisfied with all that i have. Alhamdulillah. most of my dream had come true only some of it are waiting for me to achieve. I am only human for i have flaws and so much weakness. I hope things will be better as soon as possible sometimes i wish i was a superhero so i could safe my family from any trouble.

let bygones be bygones.

December, here it comes again!

suddenly felt like singging Natalie Imbruglia 'Beauty on the fire'....

I admit I was late. The wishlist should have been posted earlier this month. well, can't realy explain how busy i am which, aku pun tak pasti apa lah sangat yang busynya until i almost actually forgot to do my wishlish. this is like a MUST for me. it's like tiap tahun punya event yang wajib. haha. (kalau bab ni kau pandai la wajib, cuba bab agama yang wajib-wajib sikit disuruh buat?)

well, I might say that I am satisfied with what i had for my wedding. thanks friends for the gifts. Insyallah, tuhan sahaja yang dapat membalas jasamu. (in case kalau aku terlupa bagi time kau kawen or in case aku tak sempat nak bagi time kau kawen nanti ye?)

However, that wasn't the same right? am I darings?

My first wishlish has been given in advance to me actually. It was a honeymoon trip. guess what (bukan aku nak takbur ke riak tapi aku nak share juga tak kira).

the lovely husband grant me with this wonderful surprise, it was perhaps for our wedding gift but i might as well consider it for the birthday as well. tapi sayang nak lagi hadiah lain. hahaha. dera dia. he gave me ticket to a place where i really wanna be since sekolah rendah. my city of love for what i would call it. Alhamdulillah. Ok and we already ate my birthday cake in advance since we have kept it for 2 days and i can't resist to eat it with him and his adik. at least, ada la orang lain except for only both of us je.

my very best mate back in mmu. syafiq, subba and zetty gave me a wonderful gift as well for the wedding and my birthday and it was a hotel for the 2 ofus to stay somewhere in Thailand for 3d2n. thank you so much for the gift. i love you even more. (bukan nak tiru julie ok. i ikhlas 100 percent).

All right. that's for the advance gift that i received. what about the gift during the birthday. hmmm... let me see what should i list them?

winter coat

or

pleasure by estee lauder (with free lotion like this kalau boleh ;p )

tapi yang sebenar-benarnya tak ada di antara wishlist aku buat ni yang betul-betul aku nak pun sebenarnya. ini antara apa yang terlintas buat masa sekarang. i am grateful for what i have now. Alhamdulillah.i have my self, friends and family. but.... most of all now i already have the most awesome-est, wonderful-est, excellent-est,handsome-est, cool-est, greatest etc etc (this would not enough to show how best-EST you are dear) husband in the whole world. i am certainly done with that. i love him from the bottom of my heart. tak payah nak kembang sangat eh abang? i miss you so much. (i'm missing you so much... don't know how i survive, a day without you is like a year without rain - selena gomez punya lagu la pulak)

p/s: off to pick up the perasan-est husband from work now and teman him futsal haiyarghhhh! (itu pun nak update ke? mesti lah! blog aku, biarlah jeles?) ;)

a surprise bridal shower

before

after

i've been rarely update my personal blog since I have been busy with things.

So, all the weekends and public holiday for the past 2 months had been very hectic i must say. the best part is when last weekend was supposed to be the week for me and GDO to spend time together. it was at first i thought would be just like a normal 'hang-out' session with stories, watching movie, taking pictures and food.

i never really thought that it could turn out to be a real like so real bridal shower for me. haaha. thanks to all of them. they've got me. the day went as usual as it seems, got up at 7 am then getting ready to meet syafiq and subba and then heading to ampang park station to pick up zetty.

zetty got into wrong train so me and julie couldn't help ourself from having our Mcd breakfast and then met syafiq subba and zetty at old town coffee.

as arrived at putrajaya, they suddenly open up the boot of julie's car and i found myself smiling and laughing don't really know actually how to react when i see the balloon and stuffs ready for the photoshoot. haha. it was so nice and i am touched.

then after the photoshoot session, we went to Chillis KLCC for lunch. that was my first time there and the dishes was delicious. we then went to Pavi to watch movie afterwards and at the mean time of waiting for the movie we get ourself a dessert at the chocolate lounge. it was superb! i enjoy the fruits dip with chocolate.

thank you so much to Subba, Syafiq, Julie and Zetty. it was indeed the best experience and the best moment with you guys. I'm sure that I will definitely miss each one of you for every moment spend with you guys. Tears and joys. love.

it's now time for me to move forward. no turning back, i am going to enter a new phase in life. be it good or bad it is all price that one should pay. Tawakal kepada Allah. Insyallah semuanya bakal dipermudahkan. Experience is the best teacher, one will never know how pain should feel until he really felt it himself.

p/s: it's another 17 days left. pray that everything will work well and that Me and him live happily ever after. amin ya rabbal alamin.

Merdeka Raya 2011

kuih suji diamond.

chocolate cookies

this year, we celebrates the very first raya with our newbie. kak shida, my sister in law.next year pula akan ada lg newbie sb kak shidah is now expecting. excited!

so, this year is a very special raya to us. celebrate raya at enstek sepang with our beloved nyayi. not as she used to be, she's not in a very good condition after she been attack with stroke. all of us pray that nyayi will be just fine soon. amin.

and and... this is the first raya that i have to give out the green packet and not collecting it anymore.sigh~ how nice if i could just give the empty packet and not the content. haha. eish eish. tak baik. ikhlas ikhlas.

p/s: tak cuti raya. tak sempat nak buat kuih raya pun.

WPTB Project 4 (the reception - Melaka

WPTB Project 3 (the wedding-kuantan)

it's been awhile since i update this blog. i left the story hanging for too long already. the sis in law that once is 'future' has now become the real sis in law and already expecting. well, here's some of the photos during the event.

weekender at johore

i was born inside this house. disambut oleh yok long (moyang) aku

with makusu dan makuda at ns lemak senibung

air kelapa bertuah ni

di rumah maklong

dengan kak yanti. bakal pengantin may nanti

wanna watch break up!!!!!!

i went to johore this weekend. great journey i must say. would definitely bring along the boyfie since he never been there. can't wait. as arrived at batu pahat, the uncle offers us to watch 'hantu kak limah balik rumah'. lawak tak hingat. thumbs up! then tengok ngangkung. pun lawak juga.

the next morning, we depart from bp to jb for the engagement ceremony at maklong's house in jln nong chik. it was ages since i went jb. like totally different feelings meresap di kalbu gitu as we went through all the way that we used to pass through previously. tempat kelahiran. then, petang pergi minum abc n makan mee rebus. malam tu terus tido rumah makusu.

we went to senibung for nasi lemak. unfortunately, i got a gastrix. such a sux night. it spoiled the day. we skip downtown just because i can't stop vomitted all the nasi lemak that i ate. gile tak best. it all happen hanya kerana sebiji buah kelapa yang aku sedut time perut kosong. sepatutnya minum air panas lain. silap besar! i hate my gastrix. nasib baik boleh ok, tak perlu nak gi klinik. terpaksa tidur menyarap malam tu.

the next day, kitaorang akan singgah ke bp untuk drop makuda kat bp. jadi singgah la pontian on the way back tu. ingat nak lalu lalu je. tapi habis satu pontian kitaorang pusing. parit semerah, seaside, bando, tambak tengok orang mancing kat pertandingan mancing, masuk taman damai tempat aku membesar, lalu kampung dalam tempat aku dilahirkan dll. seronok. rasa macam balik rumah. rumah yang betul betul rumah. rindu gila. tapi dapat rasa macam dapat lepaskan rindu yang sekian lama.

lepas pontian, kitaorang terus bertolak balik bp. sempat makan goreng pisang rojak n mee goreng bodoh. terbaik! then ingat nak drop by makuda saja, rupanya sempat tido lagi kitaorang. rehat secukupnya sebelum nak drive balik, balik melaka. sedihnya.