Eagerness

Previously,
Marriage was just a dream for me.
I bet for every other girls out there.
It has been the lifetime plan for the big day.

Now,
I'm entering this new phase in life.
My dream had finally come true.
And i finally found a guy that was meant for me.

Previously,
Paris was just a place that i diely wanna be.
I always remember how i fancy eifel tower.
How i wish that i could have a picture of me there.

Now,
I begin yo realize that miracle always happen.
At least i know now how wonderful the feeling is.
That now i have the ticket to be there at once.

Alhamdulillah. I am praying a lot for this coming journey that i've been looking for,would run smoothly. I couldn't ask for more. I thank my husband for his efforts to have made all the preparation. I love him with all my heart. When everyone else is still searching for the right person in their lives, i had found him and am so glad. Above all, he is the dream come true for me.

pete yorn - search your heart

1,2,2
and you search your heart x4
I just wanna tell you
I don't know why
If you find the answer
I'll be inside
arranging time
You won't find another dummy who wait for you
So I hate the one who lives for you

Don't blame me for your trouble

and you search your heart x2

I don't need an answer
I just don't know
If you find it one day
I know that you're strenght is gone
and you are shattered

Don't hate me for I live for you
Don't make me do things you won't do

Don't blame me for your trouble

Cos' you know once you're over the top of the hill
You're life ain't no supermarket store
And you know this
And it shows x2

yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

So I blame the boy who's there for you
Don't make him do things you won't do

Don't blame me for your trouble
Don't hate me for your trouble
Don't blame me for your, oh oh oh

And you search your heart x2
And you search your

try sleeping with a broken heart lyric

Even if you were a million miles away
I could still feel you in my bed
Near me, touch me, feel me
And even in the bottom of the sea
I can still hear inside my head
Telling me, touch me, feel me
And all the time you were telling me lies

So tonight I’m gonna find a way to make it without you
Tonight I’m gonna find a way to make it without you
I’m gonna hold onto the times that we had
Tonight I’m gonna find a way to make it without you

Have you ever tried sleeping with a broken heart
Well you can try sleeping in my bed
Lonely, only, nobody ever shut it down like you
You wore the crown, you make my body feel heaven-bound
Why don’t you hold me, need me, I thought you told me
You’d never leave me

Looking in the sky I can see your face
And i knew right where I’d fit in
Take me, make me
You know that I’ll always be in love with you
Right til the end

So tonight I’m gonna find a way to make it without you
Tonight I’m gonna find a way to make it without you
I’m gonna hold onto the times that we had
Tonight I’m gonna find a way to make it without you

Anybody could have told you right from the start
It’s bout fall apart
So rather than hold onto a broken dream
Or just hold onto love
And I could find a way to make it
Don’t hold on too tight
I’ll make it without you tonight

So tonight I’m gonna find a way to make it without you
Tonight I’m gonna find a way to make it without you
I’m gonna hold onto the times that we had
Tonight I’m gonna find a way to make it without you

10 things i hate about you

I hate the way you talk to me,
And the way you cut your hair.
I hate the way you drive my car,
I hate it when you stare.
I hate your big dumb combat boots
And the way you read my mind.
I hate you so much it makes me sick,
It even makes me rhyme.
I hate the way you're always right,
I hate it when you lie.
I hate it when you make me laugh,
Even worse when you make me cry
I hate it when you're not around,
And the fact that you didn't call
But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you,
Not even close…
Not even a little bit…
Not even at all.

p/s: ever heard of this? i love the quote. got this from one of my favorite movie, '10 things i hate about you' ever since my previous laptop been robbed, i never get the chance to watch this movie all over again. :(

there is a light that never goes out by the smith

Take me out tonight
Where theres music and theres people
And they're young and alive
Driving in your car
I never never want to go home
Because I haven't got one
Anymore

Take me out tonight
Because I want to see people and i
Want to see life
Driving in your car
Oh, please don't drop me home
Because its not my home, its their
Home, and I'm welcome no more

And if a double-decker bus
If it crashes into us
To die by your side
Is such a heavenly way to die
Ten-ton truck
Kills the both of us
To die by your side
Well, the pleasure - the privilege is mine

Take me out tonight
Take me anywhere, I don't care
I don't care, I don't care
And in the darkened underpass
I thought oh god, my chance has come at last
(but then a strange fear gripped me and i
Just couldn't ask)

Take me out tonight
Oh, take me anywhere, I don't care
I don't care, I don't care
Driving in your car
I never never want to go home
Because I haven't got one, da ...
Oh, I haven't got one

And if a double-decker bus
if it crashes into us
To die by your side
Ten-ton truck
Kills the both of us
To die by your side
Well, the pleasure - the privilege is mine

Oh, there is a light and it never goes out
There is a light and it never goes out
There is a light and it never goes out
There is a light and it never goes out
There is a light and it never goes out
There is a light and it never goes out
There is a light and it never goes out
There is a light and it never goes out
There is a light and it never goes out



p/s: ost 500 days of summer. best!

bella cover 'im not an actor by MLTR'

p/s: my all time favorite video. i just love it!
sorry. can't help it. i must have love myself too much i guess
i tend to be so tak malu by uploading my own video.
eiii. kelakar je. i ought to be satisfied and happy too
so what? have a nice day!
-xoxo-

mother's day special

COUTION: DO WEAR YOUR HEADPHONE, EARPHONE, OR WHAT SOEVER TO LISTEN TO THIS UG-LEYH VIDEO. THANK YOU





just for my mum cover. (so7)

this song is dedicated to mama. happy mother's day to her with much love and respects.

p/s: ya i know i have pretty bad voice, and the video is bad also and i am not a good guitarist and what else?

khas untuk preciouscaBELLA

nada tersusun hanya untukmu

tercipta dari seluruh jiwaku

mendendang lembut setiap kata

menghembus dari segenap rasa

lemas namun aku lega

kamu kini aku yang punya

tiada sesal yang dirasa

hanya senang kerna bersama

slalu terhibur diriku kini

meluah semua resah dihati

kerna kamu slalu mengerti

apa saja yg kuingini

- 3:37am 5/3/'07 -

p/s: dah lama dah benda ni tercipta. tapi aku nak share gak kat blog aku sebab before this aku memang dah post kat blog myspace.

APRIL FOOL!!!

life's rock!

"eh. bengang je gan teacher tu kan? what did she asked you earlier?" Christ sibuk tanya aku sebab dia kena marah dengan cikgu English kerana dia selalu tak datang sekolah, sama lah dengan aku. 'teacher' adalah panggilan untuk cikgu English kami, wanita berbangsa India yang dah menjangkau usia 5o lebih.

sebenarnya ni kali pertama dia bual dengan aku tapi aku layan kan saja la. mungkin dia tanya aku sebab aku pun kena marah juga sebelum dia tadi. 'teacher' ugut nak minta nombor telefon mama atau abah kononnya nak gertak supaya aku mengaku yang aku ponteng sekolah dan melepak tempat lain. padahal, memang aku ada rumah dan mama abah pun sedia maklum aku tak datang sekolah sebab malas. aku baru beberapa bulan pindah sekolah tu. mereka paham aku masih tak dapat sesuaikan diri dengan suasana baru dan masih rindukan tempat lama. tapi 'teacher' aku tak kan paham kot.

"entah la." balas aku tersenyum, hampir tak menjawab soalan tadi gara-gara cuba mengawal perasaan tertanya-tanya dan terkejut.

mungkin muka aku ada menunjukkan riak terkejut sebab pertama kali dia tegur aku. entah dia perasan ke tak, tak tau la. selama ni aku cuma dengar dari mulut classmate je. cerita pasal dia pun budak baru tapi masuk sekolah tu tahun lepas.

"dia macam melayu tapi sebenarnya bukan islam" teringat kata-kata rakan sekelas pasal Christ. rupanya Christ kacukan India dan Cina. memang la serupa Melayu.

sebelum aku sambung lagi ayat seterusnya, aku cuba menulis sesuatu atas kertas soalan SPM yang Rozie bagi sekejap tadi. "Ariana Razman" agak besar tulisan aku di situ. tak kesah la, janji nanti tak tertukar dengan kertas orang lain dan sebenarnya supaya aku ingat untuk bawa balik kertas soalan tu nanti.

"alah, dia cuma nak tau kenapa tak datang. buat malu aku je kena marah depan kelas. siap minta nombor parents aku sebab dia nak mengadu aku lepak Mahkota" sambungku. masa ni kami berdua ketawa. kelakar jawapan aku ni agaknya untuk dia. memang kelakar untuk aku sebab aku tak reti nak ke Mahkota sendiri kalau tak mama yang bawa ke sana. belum sempat dia buka mulut, aku dah mula sambung ayat aku tadi.

"semalam dia panggil adik ko naik kelas. kesian dia, kena soal siasat. i bet he really felt embarrass that time. why don't you come?" panjang lebar. mesti dia kata aku banyak cakap ni. lantak lah.

aku jarang borak dengan lelaki dalam kelas ni sebab pada mereka perempuan dengan lelaki tak bergaul sangat kecuali kalau kau makwe dia. aku pun tak paham. selama ni, aku tak pernah pula terfikir sekolah baru aku akan jadi macam ni. agak sukar untuk aku sesuaikan diri. kalau kat tempat lama, kitaorang selamba je. dah biasa kalau borak-borak dengan lelaki. banyak benda boleh discuss. study pun campur lelaki dan perempuan gi library. jadi, to fit in aku banyak mendiamkan diri dan buat hal aku sendiri daripada nak sibuk hal diaorang. malas. sebab tu aku jarang datang sekolah. bosan lah. it is not as interesting as my former school was. ya, it kinda change me, my perception on school, and how to socialize with friends.


p/s: mungkin akan bersambung. tapi rasa macam untuk bacaan sendiri dan kepuasan diri sendiri je ni.haha. apa-apa la win, asalkan ko bahagia sudah la kan? gudnite. esok meeting and presentation. Gudluck though!

VISIT THE OTHER BLOG OF MINE, ONLY IF YOU FEEL LIKE READING THE CONTINUOUS OF THE STORY. I'M TRYING TO ACCOMPLISH MY WISH TO WRITE A STORY. THIS MEAN A LOT TO ME. WILL PROBABLY CONSIDER ANY COMMENT FROM ANYONE. THIS WILL BE ONE OF MY ATTEMPT TO TRY OUT MY ABILITY. SORRY FOR ANY OFFENSES. REMINDED HERE THAT THE STORY DOESN'T RELATE WITH ANYONE OR ANYTHING IN ANY SITUATION. THIS IS JUST A STORY THAT I CREATED. THAT'S ALL. THANK YOU.

bestest bestfriend

i have been telling a lot about myself, about what i like and dislike, introduce this and that in my life. now, i would love to tell more about my friends back in Johor. basically, the photos below are my best friends from secondary school except the two of them, rahmah and jiah coz i know them since primary. i wish i can turn back time. to be with them like we used to. but know that things won't be the same as before. time change our life. if i were to live in pontian, johor still, i won't be able to spend the time with them like before. we all have our own life, to achieve what we need to achieve in life to work and continue the studies. oh i miss them so much now.

mocha with rahmah (bestest bestfriend.always will be)

few hours ago i message her telling her something important to me and might be to her as well. the engagement has been postpone. as usual, she is the first person to know this (other than my family). i always wanted her to be here with me. this has been very hard for me lately but i knew i have life to move on with. I'm not sure how to tell the others but I'm sure this is not the point and it's not a big deal at all. might be because i think too much that cause me a headache. me and her doesn't contact to often though but we both care for each other. we share everything we could especially important things. we advice each other to keep holding on with life, to handle life well, to coop with anything that come along the way, to manage own self and always remind each other how important life and future are. so, that is basically bout us. she is the most closest friend to me even we haven't met for ages.

mocha with jiah

her name is najiah. me, her, and rahmah are friends since primary school. i knew her in standard 4. she is my classmate and met rahmah in standard 6 and since that time rahmah had become my closest friend. i used to hung out at jiah's house after school since her house is just in front of our school. a lot of memory there. i believe we won't even forget that.

mocha with nazra

i met nazra in secondary school. we became close since form3. it's a bit later compare to rahmah and jiah. we used to have boyfriend that are friend too so we will have a double date. but that was then. i miss those time, really.

mocha with ayu

she really look like her name 'ayu' (beautiful i guess). she always act mature compare to the other. she is cool. i knew her since form 3 same with nazra. now she's working and everybody is busy with their own life and they had other friends for sure. things really change but I'm sure we're still good friends. i miss them so much and really do want to meet them.

the lovely bella: cover bubbly

p/s: after so many days thinking whether i should or should not put this video, i suddenly came to the final answer. benda macam ni pun nak pening pikir. this is my own blog. i should do what i think i want to do. so, this is it. i enjoy playing bella so damn much even i do realize i don't know how to play it well enough. i only knows a little or two bout it. i am still learning. i want to share it with others though i know i am so not cool by putting this video but this is what i want.this is me, myself. if i didn't accomplish it, who whould have done it for me. i myself have to be confidence and firm with whatever things i wanted to do so much. care- less with what others think, the important is what satisfy me. coz we are powerless to satisfy others but we are able to satisfy our own self.

oh well, before i posted this video i do asked opinion from several people especially my mum and sis (family aku la pengkritik terhebat dlm hidup aku selama ni). wanna know what did they comment when i first showed them this video?

mama: "hahaha.. ceh ceh. bukan main lagi. tengok kepala angah, dik".
sis: haha..haha (dan haha lagi).
*lebih kurang macam ni la apa yg diaorang comment.maybe not exactly the same as what i wrote here*.

actually, i don't even realize what did i do or what is my body language when playing 'the bella'. i just feel 'bestnye'.hehe. then, i asked the other question..

"then? how? should i put this video?".

they laugh AGAIN and agreed that i should give it a try and share it with others. so, apa lagi kawan-kawan. let's laugh together!!

sonnet 18

"Shall I compare thee to a summer's day?
Thou art more lovely and more temperate:
Rough winds do shake the darling buds of May,
And summer's lease hath all too short a date:
Sometime too hot the eye of heaven shines,
And often is his gold complexion dimmed,
And every fair from fair sometime declines,
By chance, or nature's changing course untrimmed:
But thy eternal summer shall not fade,
Nor lose possession of that fair thou ow'st,
Nor shall death brag thou wander'st in his shade,
When in eternal lines to time thou grow'st,
So long as men can breathe, or eyes can see,
So long lives this, and this gives life to thee."

-William Shakespeare.

p/s: this sonnet 18 introduce me to him about 9 years back when i was in form 1 i guess. all of the students can't understand what he's trying to say but fortunately the teacher explain it to us. i still can remember a little. hehe. well, i really admire his artwork.

problem-moblem

introducing Preciousca-bella. The one and only guitar i have and credit to Subba and Syafik for this very lovely present. i feel so gifted and happy though it's already 2 years old but i can still remeber the day i was given this lovely present. shocked and grateful. man, i longed to have a guitar since i was 14, 15 years old..and have it came true during my 19th birthday (dec '06). thank you so much. i've been bless for having good friend like you guys.

well, that is not the exact story for this blog.

i assume and believe that everyone have their own secret or might be a problem or burden that they might kept it deep inside or express it out loud. well, for me some are better left unsaid and some should be said. it depends. so, i am currently having tons of problems right now which i might prefer not to mention it here. however, i would rather said that this blog is one of the medium for me to release or distract my attention to only think of the problem matters. it's tiring man. even my brain could jamm one day thinking of it.

as we grow older day by day, we tend to think a lots of things compare to when we were younger. i can still recall the time when i was small, still in kindergarten. the only things in mind was my barbie doll or toys that i wanted to buy that time. so, mainly that was the only problem i had. other things i won't care to bother. my mum did the thinking of what i should wear and what i should eat. NOW, everything matters to me. what i should do tomorrow, for the future, the studies, the family matters, the money, the friends, people arounds me and lots of other things. can you see the different? therefore, we tend to feel annoy when things get slow a long the way. i.e. trafic jamm when we are in a hurry coz there are other things to be done. i understand it now. why abah hate trafic jamm or being in crowded places. it just piss him off because he finds it not worth it since he got many other things to do rather than being in that kinda situation.

oh, the bella is the most important creature to me since i always play her for the sake of making me happier even for a lil bit. will do. i feel like she always understand what my feelings are. sometimes i dont understand it but i can feel that it's nice to touch her when i feel like i need to cry on someone. and because not everyone can understand what you feel at time. but bella does. even bella doesnt fix the problem directly but she did it indirectly. i try to clear my mind when i strum her strings (and it works), and then i will be more rational and positive bout things.

that's all. i am down, frustrated, lazy, don't feel like hearing or having anymore problem right now and i am currently not in the mood for anything other than playing games, playing bella, and online especially blogging. bye

what is this called?

this is not me.
i am not used to this situation
this environment
making me sick
worse! nightmare!

i need to recover
need to turn back time
to be back
as who i am

this is not my place
it is not what i want
what i desire
and i want to leave

but there is something
something that holds me back
pull me! and tell me
not to leave

so here i am
facing the facts! truth
the reality of life
which i choose to lived for

*sigh*

cover: pacarku

should i?

should i be the one you need?
should i be the one you love?
the questions linger from all over
stuck in my head with all the fear

should you be true or lie to me
should you be near or far away
or might be better if its left unsaid
cause precious time will fade away

this full boxes contain with love
and plain heart that needed colors
the one you seek could've been here
and awaits you without a tears




this idea datang bile aku rase semangat seni tu terseru sendiri. biasanya bila kepala kusut memikirkan banyak perihal. tension yang amat sangat sebab final exam semakin hampir. untuk elakkan mengantuk biasenya. akan terilham la macam-macam. this is only for my own satisfaction. which i always prefer whenever i need to feel relief.

Perkasa

wanita perkasa menuju jaya
menjulang bakti untuk berjaya
majulah diri untuk pertiwi
agar tertanam utuh di diri

pengalaman silam jadi pengajaran
mendendang langkah tenang berjalan
tegarkan diri menempuh dugaan
agar bisa ditepis segala rintangan

majulah wanita majukan diri
tidaklah hanya ditakuk lama
semua ini muhasabah diri
supaya teguh menangung bencana

azwin khairuddin

adakah pengakhiran?

aku disini sedia menanti

menanti dgn penuh kesabaran

menunggu hadir sinar mentari

agar tersuluh segenap kegelapan

redha aku apa terjadi

namun harapan tinggi melangit

doaku agar ceria lah hari

dapat ditempuh tiadalah perit

sedarkan diri celik lah mata

bahawa hati kian terseksa

jangan ditanggung penuh derita

kelak hiba yang akan terasa

jauh kini perjalanan terasa

berbatu sudah dilalui bersama

berlalu juga detik dan masa

terimbas pula kenangan lama

penat menanti jawapan tak pasti

lelah pula kian menguasai

puas sudah jawapan kunanti

mengapa pula sunyi yang dirasai

- azwinKHAIRUDDIN7 -

deep inside my heart

sorry if you think i forgot bout you
i am also sorry for troubling you
sorry again for neglecting you
and truly sorry for hurting you

deep in my heart i also feel hurt
sometimes my world just like an end
i can't turn and neither to move
i am alone and lost in sight

i always wonder why this happen
am i fortunate to feel all this
u were away and seem dont care
and im so afraid if i will loose you

lets be together till death apart
tough obstacle may come in between
i want you here to be beside me
forever and always just like we used to be

u need to know that u're apart of me
and thai i wont give love again
it's just enough to provide it to you
coz i dont want you to hurt anymore

afraid of losing YOU

i know things seem fucking unclear to us
understand that this seem unfair to you
i can feel that you've been avoiding me
all this while you try not to talk to me

what the hell do you think u are?
u are hurting me with what u been doing
u seem dont bother to consider me
u are so far and out of reach

i left alone here with the hurts
knowing the facts that u wont care
hell i cry till the last tears drop
and that is when i can see the star

the star shines so brightly
till i can feel that i was smiling
it also said that i smile lovely
and the star told me to stop crying

now that u are back and be by my side
i am glad that u still wanna be with me
once u said that u also feel hurt
and damn im sorry for hurting u

u always there whenever i need u
please dont leave me again this time
i hope that we will always be together
and let GOD knows that i dont wanna loose u as a frend