sharing

in this real world, we came to know many kinds of people,human being. in any form of relationship. friends, relative, colleague, boss, teacher/lecturer, mother, father, siblings and many more. however among all this relationship, there is always a ties that holds the persons together- a bond. furthermore, this bonding relation must always be tie with trust. believe me, trust and sincerity is the most essential thing in relation. without those elements, the relation might end up in negative way.

i assume that most of people in this entire world have friends. but a friend that does not know how to appreciate their other friend are such a hopeless person. as a quote says that " when you stop sharing means you stop the relationship", if the other friend does not have the feel that you are happy being their friend so what's the point of being their friend anyways? but after all, people are blind sometimes. they do not even see the flaws in their relation. they are too kind and nice for the friends and yet their friends took advantages on them for being such a humble and nice person. no! do not be that kind of person. we have to know what is best for us.

and the most things to avoid is a betrayal. this always happen among friends. i always tell myself that "the main enemy is the one that's beside and near us, not the one that we think as our enemy". im sure that most of us won't prefer to talk or be nice to our enemies rite? we try to avoid them as good as we could. but not with the friends or person near us, because person that know us best is actually the one who knows our weakness and therefore, they know how to bring us down. it is so sad to have a friend like this-a back stabber! try to avoid this kind of person. oh gosh! how i wish it is as easy as to talk about it. taking action and discuss on it is not the same thing to be done. it takes a lot of effort and initiative also a strong guts to make it happen.



p/s: orang yang mempunyai hati yang BUSUK dan mementingkan diri sendiri tak akan pernah selamat dalam hidupnya.dia akan selalu ditimpa musibah. jadi apa la salah nya berkongsi bersama dengan yang laen. cuba untuk berkongsi dengan hati yang ikhlas tanpa mengharap sebarang balasan. insyallah, dengan izin tuhan dia akan merahmatimu. dan percaya la, setiap kali musibah melanda doa dari orang yang anda telah berkongsi itu akan menjadi rahmat atau berkat untuk anda menuju kejayaan. dan jika anda bertemu kejayaan, jangan lah alpa dan lalai untuk bersyukur kepadanya dan tiada salahnya jika anda juga mahu berkongsi kejayaan itu dengan yang lain terutama sekali keluarga, rakan-rakan dan sahabat handai. nescaya mereka jua tidak akan segan dan silu untuk berkongsi suka dan duka bersama anda. dan ingatlah bahawa kehidupan di dunia ini sementara dan akhirat yang kekal selamanya! ya Allah jauhkan la aku,keluarga dan rakan-rakan ku daripada terjerumus dalam golongan orang-orang sedemikian. ampuni dosa kami, bersih dan sucikan hati kami supaya hidup kami diredhai.amin.

forgotten again

dia tak tahu ke aku masih ingat?
tak tahu ke aku masih tunggu?
masih perlukan penjelasan.
masih ingin kembali seperti dulu

mungkin aku rindu.
mungkin dia yang dah berubah
mungkin dia kecewa
mungkin dia tersalah paham

atau aku yang kena beralah
atau aku yang berbuat salah
dan aku yang mengundang masalah
atau punca segala resah

kenapa dia senyap?
kenapa dia makin jauh?
kenapa tak mahu bertegur?
kenapa telah hilang?

sebab tak mahu sakit hati?
sebab nak amik peluang berubah?
untuk undur diri?
tapi mengapa?

aku masih perlukannya
tapi dia tidak.
aku pentingkan diri?
dan dia?tidak??

aku benci perasaan ni.
dah berkali-kali
namun aku masih tak sedar
masih sedia menunggu ajaib

yang hilang kan berganti
itu kata mereka
kata aku lain
kerana ia tak pernah terganti


=( aku sangat emo.aku terganggu.aku dah semakin sedih.haru.

new year.

this new year eve is not as usual.as when i used to celebrate during my school time.my teenage time. (gosh!how old am i?)hang-out with friends,lepaking at town tunggu count down.but mostly bile dah nk dekat count down my mum akan bawak my cousins all join utk tengok bunga api.that was in johor.i really miss johor and all my memory there.it is a place where i grew up, learnt a lot of things.and malacca take over when i was in form 5.boring.maybe because im to used to johor's environment.i feel like malacca people don't fit me well.there are much different from me.i had not much friends here.untill i met my other friends in mmu malacca.hehe.oh, oritie.let's get back to the new year story for 2009.

i can see that everybody has their new aim for this year in their mind.ramai orang kat kawasan jusco tadi.and i met someone i knew back in tmn damai johor.what a pleasant.if im not mistaken his name is aman tonjet. new year ni celebrate dengan tengok wayang je.with subba, syafiq, julie and amad.tapi kat mbo kiteorang jumpe azra,khei,jujue and her friend.so, kiteorang kinda sit together la tadi.

macam-macam berlaku di tahun 2008. i manage to survive even it is hard for me to swallow.(seriusly!). my new year's aim?just like subba's question on me. i answer it with the same answer as previous year. "to fluent in english and to wear tudung".that's my aim that i haven't fulfill yet. and she will response with the same action as i expected from before "u tak habis-habis dengan azam tu". i will miss them.will miss all the moment spent with my friends.

i just hope that everything's fine. and hopefully will be on my way (it's not gonna happen ya?)however, despite all the things happen to me in this year i will always remember it. like i've heard before "don't cry for it,laugh coz it happens". =)


p/s: thanks for all the people that's always here by my side.always there when i needed. especially my mama and abah.they are all for me.my strenght!

tagged again

1. What if you were the last person on earth. What would you do?
~ i hate being alone.dah la aku penakut.so, i really cant think of being in that kinda situation


2. What would you do if you have only 24 hours to live and you can do anything in the whole world?
~ i want to spent the rest of my life with people i love.and tell them everything that i cant tell earlier


3. Name 5 people you will take with you to anywhere you go. Where? Why? (family counts as 1)
~ family to makkah and everywhere
~ rahmah to japan.she mention it before
~ rudy to paris and menchester.he want to watch mu game
~ dean to papua new gunea. he had been there.haha
~ subba to disney land.because i think she will love it


4. 3 reasons you have a blog?
~ simply
~ medium of expressing my feelings
~ though my blog sux, but i dnt knw y i still wanna keep it


5. 2 ways you would change the world.
~ everything's free
~ no one did any crime


~ 6. Name your 1st friend.
~ nurul atiqah =) she's 2years younger than me but 2x bigger size than me


7. What's your worst nightmare?
~ been left alone without my family =(


8. Describe you.
~ quiet.


9. Describe your style.
~ Simple, fit me well, look nice and decent, and comfortable


10. Are you a bully?
~ guess im not


11. TAG 4 people.Who?
~ Julie
~ azra
~ azwin
~ Azwin.

tagged!

1. What is the relationship of you and him/her?

* she my 'gila kuat ketawa' friend.

2. Your 5 impressions towards him/her?

* love laughing

* she's always with khei.or khei associate with her n vice versa

* she's a loving person since she love cat

* sometimes she's unpredictable

* she is a good friend

3. The most memorable things he/she had done for you?

* she bake cake at my house

4. The most memorable things he/she have said to you?

* ape ek? "u xkurus,papan but u are petite.small in size"

5. If he/she become your lover, you will..

* haha. i can't imagine this

6. If he/she become your enemy, you will..

* buat bodoh je la

7. If he/she become your lover, he/she has to improve on...

* nothing. dia kan nak jadi mis perfectionist =p

8. If he/she become your enemy, the reason is...

* because she laugh a lot??haha. i don't know. don't think that she will be my enemy

9. The most desirable thing to do on him/her is?

* can't think

10. The overall impression of him/her is...

* she is a sweet person

11. How do you think the people around you will feel about you?

* blur.shy.quiet.

12. The character of you for yourself is?

* i love to talk,but only with certains people.and i have dificulties to make a decision

13. On contrary, the character you hate of yourself is?

* thinking too much

4. The most person that you wanna be is?

* person that has no difficulties in life

15. For the people who care about and likes you, say something about them.

* thanx so much.

16. Ten people to tag:

* azra

* julie

* rahmah

* jiah

* naz

* ayu

* tengku

*

*

*

(haha.nmpak sgt aku xder kawan)

17. Who is no. 2 having a relationship with?

* her boyfriend of course

18. Is no. 3 a male or a female?

* female

19. If no. 7 and no. 10 were together, would it be a good thing?

* there's no no 10.

20. How about no. 5 and 8?

* no 8 pun takde

21. What is no. 1 studying about?

* marketing management.poyo jek

22. Is no. 4 single?

*nope.

23. Say something about no. 6..

* she's a model.wuhuw

what is this called?

this is not me.
i am not used to this situation
this environment
making me sick
worse! nightmare!

i need to recover
need to turn back time
to be back
as who i am

this is not my place
it is not what i want
what i desire
and i want to leave

but there is something
something that holds me back
pull me! and tell me
not to leave

so here i am
facing the facts! truth
the reality of life
which i choose to lived for

*sigh*

tagged from julie

ONE.
If your lover betrayed you, how will you react?
- mengamuk bagai nak gile.straight away curse him on his face.lepas da lepaskan geram semua until i satisfied.baru la akan ok.n forget bout it.haha

TWO.
If you can have a dream come true, what would it be?
- to have everything on my own way and nothing to be changed.

THREE.
Whose butt would you like to kick?
- jack ass! but im a nice person xpernah lagi kick anyone's butt

FOUR.
What would you do with a billion dollars?
- entoh la tu.i can do a lot of things with the money.will surely hired personal accountant consultant to tell me what to do.perhaps my parents

FIVE.
Would you fall in love with your best friend?
- who knows. n i wont mind. ada baeknya juga.try listening to lucky by jason mraz and colbie

SIX.
Which do you think more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
- the more should be... being loved by someone

SEVEN.
How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
- depends with my patient and the way that person treated me.but if i found someone that love me so much along the way, i would stop the waits.

EIGHT.
If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
- try to seperate them.hahaha.pii mampuih la.xkesah

NINE.
If you were to act with someone, who would it be? Your gf/bf or an actress/actor?
- an actor of course

TEN.
Would you invite your Ex bf/gf to your wedding?
- why not. im still a friend for most of my ex

ELEVEN.
How would you see yourself in ten years time?
-having fun with my own life

TWELVE.
What's your greatest fear?
- tak sempat bertaubat

THIRTEEN.
What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
- fierce.haha.

FOURTEEN.
Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
- i can't decide. i think i would love to be married and rich

FIFTEEN.
What's the first thing you do when you wake up?
- im not a consistent person.sometimes i straight to the bathroom, sometimes i watch tv 1st, sometimes aku terus cari mknan.

SIXTEEN.
Would you give all in a relationship?
- yeah. in any relationship. family,friends,love.i appreciate every relation i have. however, if i dnt get the same i might be very dissapointed. ditegaskan disini.tiap org ade interpretation masing2 utk the word 'give all'. jgn la jadi bodoh nak bagi segalanya membabi buta.ade otak boleh pikir.

SEVENTEEN.
If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
- good question. i would rather chuz the one that luv me more than anything else and prove it with the action. best man win

EIGHTEEN.
Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done?
- i easily forgive but i might hardly forget

NINETEEN.
Do you prefer being single or having a relationship?
-redha je. i care less bout this

TWENTY. List 5 people to tag
1. Azra
2. julie
3. dean
4.
5.