afraid

i'm hoping that all the wish would come true. i desperately hope it will.

insyallah i know with God's will, if it's meant for me then it will be. just a matter of time. i wish that i had a job that suits me. at least a job that i feel like like to do. i know that we can't always have what we wanted to have. well, i can still have a try until i finally gets it right?

life had turn me upside down and unfortunately i'm still standing still. kenapa la tak jatuh je sekarang ni? haha. at least i know how to holding on, how to be strong even it's not as easy as saying it. i've gone through hell. but no one's are allowed to take all that away from me. though it's my hard time, i really am glad to have it with me. at least it makes me become stronger. lesson learn is always the best medicine to cure every unpleasant feelings.

i wish i'll have the strength to stood still onwards. by all means, i try to rise on my own. if it's not me who wanted so much to help myself at the first place, how can anyone else surrounds me got the opportunity to even help me? remember (Azwin) you must try to help yourself before thinking of help from people's surrounds. they can't do anything if it wasn't you who took the effort. you have to push yourself. harder this time. hardest next time.

time. will always cure the pains.

p/s: currently listening to hero by enrique iqlesias. and kosong by dewa. :/

:)

can't wait to write an update of life's rock!

Berbuka puasa

Ramadhan menguji tahap kesabaran kita. Setiap kali ramadhan tiba setiap kali tu la mesti aku teringat apa berlaku tahun lepas lepas. Tiap tahun mesti buka dengan family, tak lupa juga gan kawan kawan, sedara mara. Rindunya. Rindu semua. But life goes on and i'm moving on. Turning a year older each year. At this point when i look back at the good all days, i'm glad to have all those memories safe with me. Smile :)

Ramadhan

Happy fasting to all muslims. Im helping mama with to sell lauk-pauk during this Ramadhan. it was fun. unfortunately on 13th August, 3rd of Ramadhan, there's a heavy rain in Malacca. we're all under the canopy but we still got wet. luckily nobody's hurt and that we manage to sell all the lauk-pauk that day. then on the following night, we heard the news that there's tiny twister at jasin's bazaar. 3 died, which one of them are the customer and 2 of them are the seller. inalillah.

may Allah bless us. i'm off to batu pahat for buka puasa with the cousins. excited!

try sleeping with a broken heart lyric

Even if you were a million miles away
I could still feel you in my bed
Near me, touch me, feel me
And even in the bottom of the sea
I can still hear inside my head
Telling me, touch me, feel me
And all the time you were telling me lies

So tonight I’m gonna find a way to make it without you
Tonight I’m gonna find a way to make it without you
I’m gonna hold onto the times that we had
Tonight I’m gonna find a way to make it without you

Have you ever tried sleeping with a broken heart
Well you can try sleeping in my bed
Lonely, only, nobody ever shut it down like you
You wore the crown, you make my body feel heaven-bound
Why don’t you hold me, need me, I thought you told me
You’d never leave me

Looking in the sky I can see your face
And i knew right where I’d fit in
Take me, make me
You know that I’ll always be in love with you
Right til the end

So tonight I’m gonna find a way to make it without you
Tonight I’m gonna find a way to make it without you
I’m gonna hold onto the times that we had
Tonight I’m gonna find a way to make it without you

Anybody could have told you right from the start
It’s bout fall apart
So rather than hold onto a broken dream
Or just hold onto love
And I could find a way to make it
Don’t hold on too tight
I’ll make it without you tonight

So tonight I’m gonna find a way to make it without you
Tonight I’m gonna find a way to make it without you
I’m gonna hold onto the times that we had
Tonight I’m gonna find a way to make it without you

Pain in reality

Yes. for i have been busy lately. With something personal indeed. Ehemm. (with face down to cover the blush on my cheek)

Well, i'm going to write about something more personal and a bit sensitive here but the reality is rather painful isn't it?

No.this has nothing to do with me n my bloody life, alright. I have to put this before everyone who ever read this could jump into false judgment.haha.

I'm sure most of us have read and heard the news bout 'peterporn'. I'm here just to add up some opinion. Might be at good or bad side. What else to say,it had spread to all of us.everyone's talking bout that i supposed.

I pity both of them in the scene/video.i wanted to know how the story ends and hope that this story doesn't ends like other stories that just remain close and blown with the wind.

irony.i want this to be stopped but at some point i want the investigation to get its final result.the laptop of that male singer has been stolen and unfortunately all that dirty x-rated video is in there.i bet this must be the male singer sex collection or what-so-ever it's his personal.if he were really intended to spread it to the whole world he should did that long ago but he didn't.he kept it safe to himself until the laptop was stolen.damn that robber. but ya, i did wonder does the laptop really got stolen? i have no clue at all.

if he were to be charged under his action of spreading the video,it's not fair.only if it's proven true that he's found guilty.but if he's charged under doing 'sex' before marriage,maybe it is rather fair.does they even muslims?i don't know.huhu

p/s: i don't know? I should have known before even writing bout this at first place but i just feel like writing it so i did.this is just an opinion and a feeling to be shared or not.

something to share

I've been excitedly trying to finished up my reading of this one novel called 'do you come here often?' by Alexandra Potter. it was good to finally - for almost a week nearly come to the ending of the story. well, actually to be honest i was cheating as i peek a look at the last page to know the ending. i can't help it. perhaps that's one of another habit of mine.

it's about how do you know when someone is the right one? i was wondering and curiously searching the answer in the entire story. i probably happen to find it in there.
it stated that
'It's got nothing to do with luck.'
'It's about being with the right man.' and how do we know when someone is the right one?
'you'll know'.

and I'm certain that we will. all of us will (am more to telling myself right now) :)
I know the right ones will fight for this. will stand for the relationship. for 'them'. for their own sake. not for anyone else. not even their alter-ego, selfishness, silliness or anything else in the whole world could defeat them from saving and fighting for the relationship/love they have.

night! i wish I'll find mine. the right man. my Mr right. (I'm not saying that I'm still searching or been waiting patiently, he'd probably standing in front of me). It's just a matter of time and deep within me is hoping and out of all i really wished that i ain't have a bad timing that it wasn't too late.

'After all, they say the best things in life are worth waiting for' Dr. Cupid in the story once told in the novel. wink ;)