bundle of joy : having zara in me

it was after our honeymoon to Bandung Indonesia and it was right after new year. i felt something strange in my body and my mens hadn't yet come guess it was just a normal change for a normal just married woman so i took some jamu to help the mens to come but not a chance. when arrived Labuan me and husband decided to had a UPT test so we did. fortunately it was a positive sign. try it two times and the result still the same.guess we need to consult a doctor and we did the next day.

doctor had asked me to stop taking the jamu and he scanned the tummy maybe it's still really tiny we cant see any. the doctor wants us to come another week cause my womb is already getting bigger but he cant tell yet cause the symptoms of getting a period will also made my womb getting bigger.

so the next week i went to another clinic to scan the baby and now we managed to see our little angel, i'm already 8 weeks that time. only God knows how wonderful the feeling was. not to mention we still in shocked and couldn't believe that we're going to have a baby and really start a new family.

from that moment i can't wait to know her gender, to feel her kicking, and everything. well, as other mommies have felt the morning sickness i do too. it wasnt good but i try to tell myself to stay positive about it even if it's hard. i got this feeling of nausea over rice, asam pedas, seafood even i do love asam pedas so much i just cant tolerate it anymore. so i don't know what to do, i cant fill my stomach and there i got gastrix. doctor gave antacid only cause pregnant mother cant simply took any medicine. cuba juga makan asam untuk hilangkan loya, tomyam, and fresh oren then my gastrix got worse until i was going to get admitted in ward just because my keytone's getting high. tapi aku berkeras tak nak stay 2 hari tu. husband would like me to stay but i still dont want to, so husband cakap doctor that he will bring me back another 2 days untuk tengok thp keytone dan air dlm badan sebab aku terlalu kering. pregnant lady have to drinks lotsa water. luckily 2 days after that i'm doing good. right after that i know i can only tolerate meggie cup. at least that's the only makanan yang aku boleh telan. asam aku gantikan dengan gula berangin, it works.so ku tak akan kena gastrix dgn elak makan makanan masam tu. oh ya, honeystar memang selalu ada dkt dgn aku sbgai kudapan sb aku kerap lapar. muntah2 still ada biasanya malam tapi kadang2 ade juga pagi tu muntah2.

ade org tak boleh bau husband la tak boleh tengok muka husband la but as for me it's diffrent sebab aku suka sgt tgk muka husband maybe kata orang sebab anak dlm kandungan tu perempuan so dia akan tertarik pada lelaki dan kalau anak dalam kandungan tu lelaki dia lbh cenderung untuk suka tengok perempuan dan kebiasaannya ibu yg ngandung anak lelaki tu suka tgk muka sendiri di depan cermin. ini aku terrbaca je tak tahu betul x.

every month i went to scan the baby. morning sickness cuma berakhir pada 11-12 weeks of my pregnancy. around that time aku dah berada di europe untuk honeymoon kami yang kedua.balik dari travel i went for a check up to check whether baby's doing great. ternyata aku agak byk bergerak n jln so baby punya position di atas uri, low lying but the doctor said it's only 16 weeks nothing to worry cause baby will accordingly change the position over time.so aku rehat secukupnya, minum susu enfamama coklat banyak2, jaga pemakanan,kurangkan buat kerja berat dan berjalan dan paling penting berdoa banyak2.

Alhamdulillah the next weeknya i went for another check up sb nk scan baby's gender da xsabar.doctor kata dah tak low lying and baby is a girl. betul kata orang tua2 naluri ibu tu yang sebenarnya paling tepat.during this time aku dah rasa zara's kickings siap ada rakam video lagi.too excited no words can describe.

setiap bulan berlalu mcm biasa until in Ramadhan aku akan balik semenanjung untuk bersalin di melaka. kena mintak surat doctor since baby is already 29th weeks. naik air asia xsilap 27-31 weeks kena ade surat kebenaran doctor and kena isi borang dr air asia mase nk fly tu nanti. so we did it all and managed to fly to melaka with the accompany of my parents sebab husband keje tak boleh nak ikut sama.as arrived melaka buat check up di klinik gov melaka je la.

masa mengandungkan zara aku memang kuat makan. in 35, 36th week ramai orang ckp perut da nampak ke bawah sgt n ada yg ckp nmpk mcm lelaki sb perut kedepan.maybe deorang xnmpk aku sbnrnya mengembang kot tepi sb aku ni kecik je.da nk bersalin pun berat baru 52kg shj.aku suka sangat makan kari masa mengandung ni.nasib baik juga tak de mengidam benda-benda pelik. ade pun aku nak kek batik sarawak, sagun, dan gula tarik. gula tarik je xdpt tp Alhamdulillah zara xngences pun. hehe.

ini lah pengalaman mengandungkan zara untuk ingatan aku sama.

from Europe with love

Salam and Good Day!

I had a wonderful experience to be shared here. Been to my Europe trip this year March, 8th until 20th. It was like a dream come true for me.

Kelana Convoy was our tourist guide for 9 days and the remaining days we were in London on our own.

For the first day as we arrived in Paris Orly airport we straight away took a van to the train station to catch our Eurotrain from Paris to London. We already did a prebooked ticket to we can't miss the train. Sadly, we missed it but fortunately it's not our fault since the train took off early before the said time. We were so glad that we didn't have to get another new ticket cause it will caused us half a thousand. it was cheaper to made a prebooked online. the train was cozy and comfortable.

As arrived in London, it's already late evening. We have to take a cab to our hotel. we stayed in Ventures Hotel in Sussex Garden. We then went for a bus tour around London but it was the last bus tour so we didn't manage to get ourself down to tour here and there on our own. The next day early in the morning we have to catch our train to Old Trafford, Manchester. Husband made a prebooked train ticket from London to Manchester for the 4 of us which is me,husband, cousin keon and brother adib. We're in Virgin train for about 2 and half hours. the trip to Old Trafford was a day trip and we also went for a tour to the stadium. It was husband's dream come true.

third day, we ought to gather at a park as a pick up point for Kelana Convoy. there are almost 60 people for this trip and it was nice to actually met with new friends. All of them are Malaysians that studied in Japan, works in Abu Dabi, and most of the others stays in Malaysia.

It all then starts tour with Kelana Convoy. We only paid around 550 pounds for that 9days trip tour to 6 countries and they covered our accomodations and meals. We had nasi lemak, meat curry, and other Malays cuisine. Sedapnya!!!

Ya Allah, too much to be told. ok, let's just cut this short. you can also visit kelana's convoy site for more informations. http://www.kelanaconvoy.co.uk/ and you can also find and add them in facebook. kelana convoy.

6 countries consists of touring to London, Netherland, Belgium, Luxembourg, Switzerland, and Paris.

There are so many interesting places that we had went. I was so happy that i finally get to see Eifel Tower with my own eyes. Alhamdulillah. i thank god for this oppurtunity. husband had made very hard effort to make my dreams come true. I love him and i knows that he loves me too.

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Update of new phase in life

It's always been awhile since i wrote here.well, not so much to share. Apparently, i was just at home jobless and still hunt for a job. I'm expecting so the husband would love if i slower down hunting for jobs at the moment.so, now i just wait for government o call me since i have updated my applicaion already and they did. I need to sit for an xm next saturday. Let's just share about this coming weekend that i'm looking forward to. Well, gonna have pizza hut tomorrow (public holiday,harvest day) with husband,begining to hunt for tailor that could sew my baju raya, watched the avengers and on sunday i have my next appointment with doctor for ultrasound! Yeay gonna meet our little angel. Excited! I've already feel the baby kicking,dancing,aerobics n etc. What much can do in Labuan? Sometimes i just love to spend the weekend at husband's office or just lie lazily at home watching movie. Fortunately, now we've discover this one warung that have delicious and almost similar mee bandung like muar's mee bandung. Most of the evening we can be seen there having dinner. ;) This is just an update of my life here in Labuan.

Eagerness

Previously,
Marriage was just a dream for me.
I bet for every other girls out there.
It has been the lifetime plan for the big day.

Now,
I'm entering this new phase in life.
My dream had finally come true.
And i finally found a guy that was meant for me.

Previously,
Paris was just a place that i diely wanna be.
I always remember how i fancy eifel tower.
How i wish that i could have a picture of me there.

Now,
I begin yo realize that miracle always happen.
At least i know now how wonderful the feeling is.
That now i have the ticket to be there at once.

Alhamdulillah. I am praying a lot for this coming journey that i've been looking for,would run smoothly. I couldn't ask for more. I thank my husband for his efforts to have made all the preparation. I love him with all my heart. When everyone else is still searching for the right person in their lives, i had found him and am so glad. Above all, he is the dream come true for me.

2011 preview

January of the year. the brother's marriage. at Kuantan and Melaka. Alhamdulillah everything went well though we've been busy with the wedding arrangement and mama had to undergo operation for she had met with an accident during along's big day. Not even the whole family but the neighbourhood had traumatized with that incident. mama's story been told in one of the local newspaper 'metro' if i'm not mistaken.

the family for Kuantan's side

February of the year has been wonderful cause the month is the shortest month as compare to others. well, I've been working with Ambank since Dec 2010. busy with training and stuff on Jan, and Feb is when i start doing real job as a personal banker there doing sales. I had an enjoyable moment there with the branch staff of Ayer Keroh. They are very good to me. We have an event during February as our local activities the picture below shows our event for chinese new year.

with Ambank Ayer Keroh branch staff

March of the year. i have love my life,my job and getting prepared for my wedding end of the year. So, been to Johor to met with my bestfriends there and also went for friends wedding reception back in Pontian.

bestfriends: ayu,nazra,me and jiah (from left)

April and May.(since i can't find any picture for April. hehe. so i just combine) i notice that it's always about my job. well, this job is kinda fit me but i hate target cause it's hard to achieve.seriously. so, te picture below is the picture of our event for the month doing outside marketing.

with Ambank staffs

June. the month i've been waiting for. We Went to Puket, Thailand. the place is so beautiful. feel like wanna go there again. went there for only 2 days and have to rush back to Malaysia cause of work. there's an important convention for sales people of Ambank. well, it's sort of worth sacrificing for cause the event was held at marriot hotel. If not because of this convention I might not have the chance to stay there. pfttt ;p



Something good also happens to me during this month. israq mikraj, 29th June I have accomplished my past 4 years resolution. You all can see my new image that I'm comfortable with right now.



my best cousin got engaged during this month in batu pahat johor.

at Phuket with them

I, Ambank staff at marriot hotel





cousin's e-day at bp

July and August. Ramadhan for muslims. had went for several free break fasting from customer and clerical staff of Ayer Keroh branch had their bonus and treat us this lovely iftar. well, when officer got their bonus we also went for makan-makan again for iftar.

Eid-ul fitr at enstek sepang and batu pahat johor. this year merdeka day and hari raya fall on the same day. unfortunately i got no leave. haha. well, i had enjoy working there during raya. nevermind.

iftar with Ayer Keroh staff

with younger sister and the cousins

September also one of the month that i've been waiting for cause i had to travel to Bandung Indonesia and i have to admit that i had already fall in love deeply with this place untill to the extend as soon as i got back to Malaysia i booked another ticket to Bandung for my honeymoon with the husband. though the plan been screwed since the husband didn't notice that the passport will expired less than another 6 months. i can't tell how frustrated i am but that is past. we're going there again this New Year 2012. he made it up at least.

at bandung with them Ambank Ayer Keroh and Semenyih staff

October had been hectic for me. every of my weekend had been filled with so many activities especially for preparation of the wedding. the very bff had organized a surprise bridal shower for specially for me. i feel so blessed. thanks a lot to them. one of the surprised given by my ex bestfriend since i think she's no more my bestie la during this month it was a news of her getting married the next day of my wedding day. she already promised to be the bridesmaid gile gelabah nak jadi sangat pengapit pastu ntah apa-apa last minute baru bagitahu. well go to hell with that. Important is at least i know who stood by me during my big day. thank you family and friends.

my best cousin got married on 9-10-11 at batu pahat johor.

bridal shower

ella's reception at bp

November was my big day. 19-11-11 was when i got married to the love of my life and that was when I entered to a new phase in my life. very big beginning throughout my entire life. though obstacles are so much had comes along the way i am proud to say that we had stayed strong together. thanks to family and friends for all the big help and for those who love to condemn and spread so many bad influence about this relationship and marriage, thanks cause you are just making me realize how i have to stay strong and not to fall of your so called judgement. i give a damn but to take it as a chance for me to prove that you're all wrong.

the bridegroom

December is my month. I always fall in love with december. during this month i'm already in Labuan missing the family that i leave back in Melaka. The picture below was taken at KK when i attended the interview with Bank Muamalat. still a job seeker right now i haven't found the job yet.

the cake was for my birthday. husband bought it for me. brownies chocolate, always my favorite.

mcD

the cake

so this pretty sum up everything. the year of 2011 will ends and i will not be around and will only be back next year. we will be going to Bandung, Indonesia on 31st we suppose to arrive 11:59 at bandung but air asia spoilt it they reschedule our flight to 7:30pm and will arrive approximately 9pm there. well, actually who cares? at least i got to go bandung again. i don't think i have any resolution for 2012 except for having a job that i could fall for. amin. that is not a prayers that i pray only during new year, it was my prayers every other day.

Above all, i have already satisfied with all that i have. Alhamdulillah. most of my dream had come true only some of it are waiting for me to achieve. I am only human for i have flaws and so much weakness. I hope things will be better as soon as possible sometimes i wish i was a superhero so i could safe my family from any trouble.

let bygones be bygones.

December, here it comes again!

suddenly felt like singging Natalie Imbruglia 'Beauty on the fire'....

I admit I was late. The wishlist should have been posted earlier this month. well, can't realy explain how busy i am which, aku pun tak pasti apa lah sangat yang busynya until i almost actually forgot to do my wishlish. this is like a MUST for me. it's like tiap tahun punya event yang wajib. haha. (kalau bab ni kau pandai la wajib, cuba bab agama yang wajib-wajib sikit disuruh buat?)

well, I might say that I am satisfied with what i had for my wedding. thanks friends for the gifts. Insyallah, tuhan sahaja yang dapat membalas jasamu. (in case kalau aku terlupa bagi time kau kawen or in case aku tak sempat nak bagi time kau kawen nanti ye?)

However, that wasn't the same right? am I darings?

My first wishlish has been given in advance to me actually. It was a honeymoon trip. guess what (bukan aku nak takbur ke riak tapi aku nak share juga tak kira).

the lovely husband grant me with this wonderful surprise, it was perhaps for our wedding gift but i might as well consider it for the birthday as well. tapi sayang nak lagi hadiah lain. hahaha. dera dia. he gave me ticket to a place where i really wanna be since sekolah rendah. my city of love for what i would call it. Alhamdulillah. Ok and we already ate my birthday cake in advance since we have kept it for 2 days and i can't resist to eat it with him and his adik. at least, ada la orang lain except for only both of us je.

my very best mate back in mmu. syafiq, subba and zetty gave me a wonderful gift as well for the wedding and my birthday and it was a hotel for the 2 ofus to stay somewhere in Thailand for 3d2n. thank you so much for the gift. i love you even more. (bukan nak tiru julie ok. i ikhlas 100 percent).

All right. that's for the advance gift that i received. what about the gift during the birthday. hmmm... let me see what should i list them?

winter coat

or

pleasure by estee lauder (with free lotion like this kalau boleh ;p )

tapi yang sebenar-benarnya tak ada di antara wishlist aku buat ni yang betul-betul aku nak pun sebenarnya. ini antara apa yang terlintas buat masa sekarang. i am grateful for what i have now. Alhamdulillah.i have my self, friends and family. but.... most of all now i already have the most awesome-est, wonderful-est, excellent-est,handsome-est, cool-est, greatest etc etc (this would not enough to show how best-EST you are dear) husband in the whole world. i am certainly done with that. i love him from the bottom of my heart. tak payah nak kembang sangat eh abang? i miss you so much. (i'm missing you so much... don't know how i survive, a day without you is like a year without rain - selena gomez punya lagu la pulak)

p/s: off to pick up the perasan-est husband from work now and teman him futsal haiyarghhhh! (itu pun nak update ke? mesti lah! blog aku, biarlah jeles?) ;)

a surprise bridal shower

before

after

i've been rarely update my personal blog since I have been busy with things.

So, all the weekends and public holiday for the past 2 months had been very hectic i must say. the best part is when last weekend was supposed to be the week for me and GDO to spend time together. it was at first i thought would be just like a normal 'hang-out' session with stories, watching movie, taking pictures and food.

i never really thought that it could turn out to be a real like so real bridal shower for me. haaha. thanks to all of them. they've got me. the day went as usual as it seems, got up at 7 am then getting ready to meet syafiq and subba and then heading to ampang park station to pick up zetty.

zetty got into wrong train so me and julie couldn't help ourself from having our Mcd breakfast and then met syafiq subba and zetty at old town coffee.

as arrived at putrajaya, they suddenly open up the boot of julie's car and i found myself smiling and laughing don't really know actually how to react when i see the balloon and stuffs ready for the photoshoot. haha. it was so nice and i am touched.

then after the photoshoot session, we went to Chillis KLCC for lunch. that was my first time there and the dishes was delicious. we then went to Pavi to watch movie afterwards and at the mean time of waiting for the movie we get ourself a dessert at the chocolate lounge. it was superb! i enjoy the fruits dip with chocolate.

thank you so much to Subba, Syafiq, Julie and Zetty. it was indeed the best experience and the best moment with you guys. I'm sure that I will definitely miss each one of you for every moment spend with you guys. Tears and joys. love.

it's now time for me to move forward. no turning back, i am going to enter a new phase in life. be it good or bad it is all price that one should pay. Tawakal kepada Allah. Insyallah semuanya bakal dipermudahkan. Experience is the best teacher, one will never know how pain should feel until he really felt it himself.

p/s: it's another 17 days left. pray that everything will work well and that Me and him live happily ever after. amin ya rabbal alamin.