penghantaran adik

sisterhood

pau kari dalam perjalanan ke pahang

big apple pun ada. untuk orang-orang dalam kereta dan along yang dalam perjalanan dari kerteh ke muadzam. he loves it, so mama bought it for him.

in front of uniten, muadzam.

he came all the way from kemaman to kuantan.dapat jumpa kejap je

i love the room no.

nana isi borang. procedure of registration. yang baju merah tu abah

sementara menunggu tengok movie dulu. orang sangat ramai ok

another changes in life. i'm alone with the parents now. along dah kerja kerteh, and now the younger sister pula study ke muadzam pahang. but this is her dream since she was at secondary school itself. kitaorang adik beradik selalu bergurau, "along study utp, angah mmu, mesti adik uniten nanti". and it finally came true. now it already happen and she is not here anymore.

kitaorang terpaksa tidur kuantan sebab kat muadzam semua hotel dah full.kat kuantan pun tu nasib-nasib je dapat sebab orang cancel reservation. kitaorang pergi dengan cik ani kawan mama sebab anak lelaki dia pun dapat masuk gak. nana, the sister ada kawan gak. member baik dia sue pun masuk uniten. tapi depa tak sebilik sebab sue daftar dulu that day. well, ada hikmah kan disebalik apa yang berlaku.

sedih je dia pergi. i feel it now u know. no matter what, things have to change and i'm certain that this is really for good. hope she can make it. well, all the best in our life. besides, i have to face this since i always pray to god to give us (family) the happiness in this life and akhirat. amin. and i'm sure all of this will come true someday.

denali baby

it was 22 june. syia came from taiping to melaka since she had something to be settled for the graduation. then, she need to collect her transcript the next 2 days. so, she asked me to help her collect the transcript and i asked her to put the receipt (so i can collect it for her) inside my post box coz i was not home.

dipendekkan cerita, as i arrived home aku cepat-cepat tengok post box nak cek sebab syia ada tinggalkan duit sekali. then, i was so shocked when i see there's a parcel (hmm..dianggap parcel ke?boleh la kot. sukati je). cek punya cek. it was for me and i knew who posted it even the sender doesn't even mention the name. nama dia sebenarnya dah tertulis kat cd tu pun.

bukak-bukak je. aku dah jerit bila nampak ni..


this really made my day that day. seriusly. i was a bit out of mood that time and i was very thankful and glad with the cd. i love the cd. oh ya. and the card is lovely also. i love the writing and the word especially 'this was how i get to know you'



p/s: thank you so much, for knowing me.

day out with rahmah and zek

zek, rahmah and mocha

21 june. i finally met my bestest bestfriend, rahmah. she came all the wayfrom johor to melaka with zek just to meet me. it's been a year since we've met. last time pun dia yang datang ke melaka. aku ni apa la kan? bukan tak nak turun sana tpi duit tak mengizinkan.

that beautiful day, kitaorang tengok movie- jangan pandang belakang congkak. gila aku ketawa tak hengat dunia sampai menangis-nagis sebab lawak. then pegi jalan-jalan jap and on the way balik we all lepak minum and makan kat tesco.

diaorang balik hari. dapat jumpa kejap je. tapi ok la kan? berbaloi. thanks sebab datang babe. u really made my day. thanks to zek also sebab teman rahmah datang. da la belanja aku semuanya. thanks a lot.

changes

the days have been different lately. there's no more azra telling that the notebook is nice, no more syafik with his new hairstyle, no more khei telling azra this and that in class, no more subba and zetty at campus, no more syia to bring us lunch at places, no more aqilah in class as my talk buddy since we always be in the same group, ohh!! there's no more email from aqilah, no more sms from the others about assignments and stuffs, omg.. i don't delete them, i wish to keep it forever.no more dheepan and the others too. it's too much 'no more' in my list. friends, i miss u

and...

i'm certain that this time, things must be very different to me. the atmosphere, the environment, even though i'm still in mmu the same place like i used to be. yeah. i keep on telling myself that things change even without our bloody preparation.

anyhow, life must go on. i have to face this. and thinking what should i do after finished studying like the others make me feel even worse, i am panic and have this unease feeling. how should i put this? this feeling is awkward to me, i can't tell them and i'm not able to even express it.

new semester

The holiday’s going to be over soon. Guess it ended already yeah? I have like only three days for class next trimester/semester because I registered only 2 subjects for the semester and it’s like only 6 credit hours for me. Basically, I have like only 6 hours for classes every week. Which makes me feel like so silly for not taking that particular subjects in previous semester. Sigh. I should be grateful somehow because I don’t think I could make it if I had to take the 8 subjects. Last trimester was a nightmare man… like seriously! I can’t imagine how I would be if I ever take the 8 subjects. i didn't want to end up fail all the subjects taken. I took 6 subjects instead for previous trimester and it was like ‘I had enough’. No, I don’t simply do that decision. I asked people bout it. The issue was like really bothering me last time. Like my head is going to blast thinking of it. Really! I asked the lecturer and coordinator also and they were like saying ‘It is not a big deal to extend the semester if you think that you can’t make it though.’ Yes, I don’t have to push myself either to struggle for the 8 subjects since it’s like kinda a lot weyh. (tapi ye ke? it was like hell last trimester siot. i push myself like fcuking seriously nak mati and i struggled like no one could ever imagine i could did that shit, man). I asked friends and they also been telling me the same thing. It doesn’t matter what my decision is, I have to bare the risk. Ohh… God help me.

I tell myself not to regret on things, alright. Then, I know there’s always reason for everything that happens. If I were to take too much subjects I might failed one of them and it will be like so wasting time and money. I’m not like the others, I know I can’t fail any subjects coz the loan won’t pay me anymore and we are not able to pay the fees if I have to retake any of the subjects. The money we have will only sufficient for the 2 subjects left for me. I have to study hard.

While others were enjoying their night and day shopping and going places they love to go, I will always be beside my parents helping them at shop or resting at home. (tipu! ada gak la keluar cuma berbanding dari yang lain, masa aku terhad. bukan sebarang-sebarang leh keluar tak tentu masa). While others have big or special present from their parents like cars, pants, laptop or anything because they pass the exams, I will be beside the parents still-sharing the happiness and victory of mine. For me, that’s the best things ever. Anugerah terbaik untuk aku adalah restu, berkat doa mereka, teguran dan nasihat, juga kasih sayang mereka yang tak da sempadannya. (aww, I sounds poyo). Apa salahnya aku bantu mereka selagi terdaya. Aku sangat sedar mereka berhempas pulas membesarkan anak-anak. Kadang-kadang tak sanggup aku tengok. Aku harap dapat ringankan beban mereka satu hari nanti dan balas jasa mereka. Aku terdengar kat al-kuliyah, ustaz tu cakap ‘menunaikan satu permintaan kecil ibu bapa ibarat berpuasa sunat atau menunaikan sembahyang sunat selama setahun’.

i was fortunate indeed coz this time, my sister gets her salary and she gives me a treat at marrybrown. Well, despite the hardship I faced as compare to others, I still able to have fun in my own way. Some friends understand me totally. not to forget, the bf too.. we can still go dating. Perhaps if the parents have extra money, they allow me to have fun with friends. Sometimes I save some money to watch movies and spent time with friends. I can still go places I wanted to go, mungkin tak ke semuanya tapi ada lah sikit-sikit. rather than nothing. We planned it earlier so I can save some money for it. Example, I and friends are planning to go vacation since some friends had already finished study. Hopefully, jadi lah the vacation.

So, here I am, left with only 2 subjects for the last trimester studying in MMU, Melaka (hopefully. Amin). The subjects are Malaysian economy and one elective subject, small business management. The elective I registered is actually a major subject for entrepreneur students. I just simply want to try that subject particularly because other elective subjects for marketing students are not offered. Poor me. I’ve planned to take B2B or Sales Management for my elective.

Several pictures from previous semester.

with syafik and erin

with syia

with subba

me, poh lin, syafik and jules during retail exhibition

dramatari @ mmu

retail trip at kampung jawa: azra, khei, julie, juejue, me and syafik

kursus kahwin with juejue, azra, and syia. (eh? sem ni ke eh? lupa)

at career camp with GDO- subba, zetty and julie

roomate at the camp - syia, azra, zetty, subba, and julie

with syafik at lecturer's office. going to meet madam Z

with syafik at DP

with julie at pasar malam after the finance exam

with syafik at pasar malam

congrats babe sebab da grad. will surely miss u, Aqilah

azra and syafik at mahkota

our night class. strategic marketing

at the jetty with syafik and julie

with julie after the dinner- asam pedas, KL terbaik!

love this picture.

p/s: there's a lot more pictures that i wish to share but i'm having difficulties to make it. garhh~

another date to remember (d-t-r)

as usual. this is the picture he likes. though i dont like it

and this is the one i like

We finally met on 6^th June for after almost 3 months tak berjumpa. We were like spending time together watching movie, bowling (for the first time), makan-makan, chatting while having great coffee, and lots more. Perhaps, just like normal couple will do. Kinda miss him pulak now. Well, everyone have dreams to pursue and so do us. So, there are many other responsibilities to carry. I’m here in Melaka and he’s there at Kemaman. We believe in faith, jodoh. Ada jodoh tak kemana kan? Tak lari gunung di kejar.

SKIP!!

The dating this time, we went to Berjaya Time Square. I woke up early to take the bus since I forgot to buy the ticket earlier. Aduh. Plus it’s a school holiday and I believe the ticket mesti da sold out. Yes I’m right. Sampai je Melaka Sentral (MC), ticket transnasional yang available Cuma pukul 11 pagi. Maka, Rudy nak aku sampai dalam kul 11pg. So, I took another bus, Delima. Depart at 9am. Ok la tu. Sejam gak aku tunggu, sempat la sarapan with mama and along.

Di Time Square, ramai sangat orang. Paling ramai budak-budak yang baru naik. Terasa tua pula. Rudy suka bawa aku jalan-jalan shopping mall lain-lain, kalau boleh tak nak tempat yang sama berulang kali. Last time dia bawa ke mid valley, one utama, the curve, dll. Setakat ni, yang paling aku selesa and rasa boleh masuk ialah the curve. Rudy cakap next time kalau datang kl dia bawa ke sunway pyramid pula. Nanti kita try ice skating lak rudy eh?

Kejap je masa berlalu, aku amik bas balik ke Melaka around 9pm and arrived at 11pm. Bas berenti betul-betul depan kedai mama. So, that was it. Habis satu hari untuk weekend aku.

p/s: syg,if u read this.. i miss u. sorry for wrongs that i've committed.

i kinda try to finish reading the book. 'call me the breeze' for the hol. resuls for last semester pun dah keluar. Alhamdulillah. berkat usaha, doa dan restu family. sangat-sangat bersyukur dan happy sekarang.

MFD '09

the girls!

it's a candid picture for me. sebab orang lain semua ready.

preciousca-bella pun dtg. dia perform

sorry sayang. i like this picture. favorite picture of the day.kinda have to upload this. sorry to fir's gf also.

the committee for this event. we were trying to finished the bookmark.

The last day for final exam is on Saturday 30th May '09 and our e-commerce paper which is the last paper was quite challenging for me because I don’t get a chance to study really hard for the paper since I was busy handling the marketing farewell dinner- we,the committee called it MFD '09. I was assigned to do the bookmark as souvenir of marketing farewell dinner 2009. The dinner was held at our beloved lecturer's house, madam zaharah at ayer keroh. Her house is really gorgeous.

Well, as I tried to study for the paper my head keep on thinking ‘boleh siap ke aku punya book mark ni. Baru siap 10 keping ada lagi 50 keping nak buat ni’. Pastu, aku akan teruskan buat book mark. Time buat book mark pula, aku akan risaukan ‘sempat ke nak study 6 chapter ni untuk e-commerce. Dah sentuh semua chapter tapi macam still tak boleh paham je ni. Apa je yang aku study ni?’ then aku akan beralih untuk study pula. Camtu je la seterusnya.

Conflict dengan diri sendiri pastu tak pasal-pasal rupanya aku babitkan orang lain yang tak sepatutnya terlibat dengan perbalahan diri aku ni. Unfair. sorry to anybody yang rasa aku ni annoying.

p/s: will miss the friends yang dah abis study. how i wish i am too. well, life's goes on kan? the last day spent with u guys are so essential, priceless, precious, etc. lepas event kitaorang jalan-jalan, makan asam pedas, mc d gi pantai puteri sampai balik kul 6pg