gambar lama (continuous from previous entry)

as i search through all my pictures, i came to see all of this picture of mine taken around 2004 to 2005. before entering mmu if i'm not mistaken. maksudnya gambar-gambar yang korang bakal lihat ni di sekitar lebih dari 5 tahun lepas. ok?

with ayu. my bestfriend back in johor. i took this picture before moving to melaka for good. in 2004 before march. in this picture, we're at library pontian johore. the quality of the photo is a bit bad because i never scan the picture, i took it by phone and upload it. haha.

my bestfriend when i went to national service at asahan, jasin. she's nazirah from muar. this picture was taken around 2005. ye la, NS kan lepas abis exam SPM.

this picture was taken also around 2005 after NS. i st

ill look a bit chubby in this photo.

and now, let's look at this picture of mine. (sebenarnya ni sambungan untuk entry yang sebelum ini.) ada tengok kan gambar ni? pernah tengok kan? compare it. i look younger. like seriously younger than i can imagine. no wonder people think i'm just entering secondary school. betul lah! kalau tak percaya... percaya lah. hehehe

azwincantik

p/s: jangan lah jealous. at least, ada la sikit kelebihan aku. asik korang je ada kelebihan kan? alhamdulillah. ni pinjaman tuhan ni. aku sedar bila-bila dia boleh amik.

hendak lagi

tolong lah. tolong lah. nak sangat-sangat-sangat-sangat.

1. nak pergi BANDUNG. tolong. sampai masuk dalam mimpi time demam. kenapa aku jadi macam orang gila entah sehari ni. harap-harap esok aku jadi normal. (betul pun. bila da masuk tengah malam baru aku boleh pikir rasional sikit)

2. iPhone. white color please. style habis seyh. serious sesuai sangat untuk aku. tak kesah la kalau 4g terlalu over budget aku, 3gs pun okay apa. (bila masa aku ada budget lagi lepas dah berenti keje ni? berangan betul)

3. wedges vincci. dari raya kempunan nak beli cuma rasa tu not necessarily kena beli so aku abaikan perasaan aku tu dan beli benda lain yang keperluan. 'wants' comes after 'needs'.

ini je setakat ini. whatever it may takes, i have to and really need to get a job first. before thinking of to have all those list. tak de la banyak sangat pun sebab rasanya aku dah ada semua. ini antara perkara yang asik berlegar-legar kat kepala otak.

first thing first. so, the first things that i wanted to have right now, so badly, so hardly, really really and bla bla bla is

a JOB please. please. please.

kalau tak. tak payah berangan nak yang berderet kat atas tu ye cik azwin.

guess i'm just too tired of waiting the good sign but i'm never gonna give it up cause i believe miracle always happen. i pray for the best. i know that all of this effort that i've given might pay me somehow. i know God have his own plan for me dan aku redha pada setiap apa yang bakal menimpa. aku sedar aku cuma hambanya. aku perlu jadi lebih taat. aku bersabar dan bersabar. setiap yang berlaku kan ada hikmah. sebagai orang islam aku kena yakin dan percaya pada qadaq dan qadar. rezeki semua datang dari tuhan. semua yang aku ada sementara. dia boleh amik bila-bila sama macam kerja lama aku. tapi aku tak menyesal. aku tau ada hikmahnya setiap yang berlaku tu. tuhan selalu beri dugaan. aku kena lah kuat tangani semua ini. kuat azwin! kuatkan semangat.

p/s: kenapa masalah blog aku dah tak boleh ada color-color dekat font dia ni? pelik betul. rasa nak marah je ni.

fun time

i manage to edit my picture. it was taken this year but i definitely look like 10 years back. really~

haa perasannya. hehehe.

it's just in a sudden i'd been thinking to edit the picture. teringat masa jadi student dulu, selalu juga edit dekat www.picnik.com. recommended by THC by Azra.

i just feel like editing picture. so here's the result.

a farewell

it's been awhile since i kept this story. cause it's some kinda personal and sensitive to me. well, i never really mentioned that i am not earning my monthly pays anymore all right. for this is about 4 months now. i'd like to share some photos during my so called performance with bella during the farewell dinner at Renaissance Hotel Melaka back on june this year.

the best thing is, i feel so appreciated when you know that someone is celebrating you. i mean, the farewell party was for me and the other staff my bestfriend kak farah. at least aku boleh tumpang sekaki juga kan? if not, i don't think they'll ever do that to me. hehe. who knows kan? i just work there for about half year and kak farah had been there for almost 3 years. mesti lah kena buat yang terbaik untuk pekerja macam dia kan? well as for me, all of it is more than enough to me. thank you so much. aku bangga betul dapat turut serta. bersyukur sangat. i never think that some of them even like me. well, enough said. time to cut all the craps.

i got precious gift from the department. ya, both of us get it. me and kak farah. i feel so glad. again, appreciated. like totally. 100%.

here's some photos. miss them!

my darlings. PPG!

with the HOD, kak aien. that's the present. i love the gift so much. thanks commercial department

(this picture is too small pula) with commercial department

me covering bubbly by colbie

love this shot. (don't know why)

p/s: the love of my life is preciouscabella. i always fall for her. always. when everyone else are with their own, bella will always there whenever i need her. never disappointed me. never. love bella

shortly

i have like only about 10minutes to update this and still i want to update. i have something to do afterwards. mama's friend is sending her son to my house. he'll be seating for SPM and i have to teach him math or any other subjects that he'd like to learnt. SPM is around the corner so guess i just taught him the most i could do at this time.

cuma nak amik mood sekarang ni dengan dengar lagu-lagu comel banyak-banyak kali sambil geleng-geleng kepala ikut rentak. bestnya rasa kalau tekak dah baik. sakit betul. update blog nak cakap benda ni je? haha. lawak betul minah sorang ni. macam nak kena turun je ni. be right back. maybe after midnight je nanti sebab sampai sekarang pun aku still tak berpuas hati dengan entry yang tangkap muat aku ni. cincai boncai je.

ok la. tata.

p/s: i am my own inspiration and that's why i always fail miserably. sigh~ macam kena tukar la cari inspiration lain pulak la!

take care

with nothing in mind i try to put something interesting here and with a sigh~ i know i would find none to put something fancy. sigh~ again. i knew i wanted to write something but my head just can't figure out what to be said.

ok. jom cerite pasal sakit dan penjagaan diri.

manusia ni jadi makin malas ke apa sebenarnya? ke sebab aku demam seminggu aku yang semakin malas? tak paham. nak selitkan nasihat sikit. jaga la diri time-time ni musim demam kot. orang asik sakit je. penyakit pelik-pelik pulak tu sekarang ni ada. risau betul aku. nak-nak untuk orang macam aku yang banyak sangat pantang larang dalam pemakanan. itu tak nak ini tak nak. time sakit baru aku nak pantang. dah berapa kali aku dapat warning ni tak boleh makan cili padi. bukan aku degil, the problem is it's just hard to resists. siang malam pagi petang cili padi. bak kata mama 'masak megie letak cili padi, telur dadar letak cili padi, nak makan sayur kacang pun nak cili padi, nasi goreng kampung ko tu dah la sebakul cili padi. pedas gila. time sakit baru nak pantang, tak sakit buat lagi.'

kesiannya aku kena kurangkan makan cili padi. susah la macam ni. hilang selera makan nanti. macam mana nak buat eh? pening juga kepala pikirkan. tapi aku pun sayang kesihatan aku ni. nampak gaya kena ada projek terbaru la lepas ni 'ops! kurangkan makan cili padi'. haha. sukati je. hopefully i manage to get through. last time nak kurangkan minum air gas dah berjaya dah. cili padi ni memang susah sikit la.

selamat menjaga diri dan hiasi peribadi. jom dgr ok! by t2. sedapnyeeee

ketakutan menjelma

takut tak? tinggal 15hari. seram sejuk seyh. doa yang terbaik je. amin amin

commanwealth pun dah last day dah ni. dan hari yang aku tunggu pun bakal kunjung tiba. seriau ni. kalah segala perasaan lain yang tengah nak kacau daun. siap demam 3 hari tak boleh bangun tu. mau tak gila. nak buat apa pun tak boleh sebab tak larat. tapi gi doctor, doctor kata demam sikit je. sakit tekak sikit je. tapi kenapa kepala aku ni bagai nak pecah. angkat sikit pun tak leh. nak meleret je. doctor ni pun biar betul. nasib da ok sikit sebab aku rajin makan ubat. ni pun berat dah turun 3 kilo apa cerite ni? fenin fenin.

It's sunday

Sunday means everything to me.my favorite day.but nowadays sunday doesn't mean much to me.i'm unemployed so perhaps i didn't wish for sunday to comes on weekdays.last time when i used to have work,i always wish that saturday and sunday would come soon.now,everything changed.things, they'll always change.so as my life.life change whether for good or bad.it change.i used to hate the chage but now just like i mention earlier,i have to accept changes cause it always occur in life.for once,i felt im changing even if i hate changes so much.and everyone surrounds me is changing.people who used to be with me changes every path along the journey.fortunately,mama and abah never leave me.they're always beside me.i don't know how i'm gonna make it without them.as for now they never dissapoint me.not like the others.they always make promises and fail to fulfill it.it's not like i desperately wanted them to be with me so much but.ahh..the hell?i think to much maybe.let's just enjoy tje change that we've made.

conflict vs confused

kalau aku nak habiskan baca buku aku mesti tak boleh kot. may i? hmm.. while i'm doing nothing, why not right? i wanted to but i'm the type of if i've liked the book/story i would try to finish it asap. the problem is, i might end up to ignore to prioritize which is which. everything will turn upside downs. alah... susahnya.

p/s: dengar lah lagu superstar ost cerite juno. sedap tau. rugi tak dengar.