penghantaran adik

sisterhood

pau kari dalam perjalanan ke pahang

big apple pun ada. untuk orang-orang dalam kereta dan along yang dalam perjalanan dari kerteh ke muadzam. he loves it, so mama bought it for him.

in front of uniten, muadzam.

he came all the way from kemaman to kuantan.dapat jumpa kejap je

i love the room no.

nana isi borang. procedure of registration. yang baju merah tu abah

sementara menunggu tengok movie dulu. orang sangat ramai ok

another changes in life. i'm alone with the parents now. along dah kerja kerteh, and now the younger sister pula study ke muadzam pahang. but this is her dream since she was at secondary school itself. kitaorang adik beradik selalu bergurau, "along study utp, angah mmu, mesti adik uniten nanti". and it finally came true. now it already happen and she is not here anymore.

kitaorang terpaksa tidur kuantan sebab kat muadzam semua hotel dah full.kat kuantan pun tu nasib-nasib je dapat sebab orang cancel reservation. kitaorang pergi dengan cik ani kawan mama sebab anak lelaki dia pun dapat masuk gak. nana, the sister ada kawan gak. member baik dia sue pun masuk uniten. tapi depa tak sebilik sebab sue daftar dulu that day. well, ada hikmah kan disebalik apa yang berlaku.

sedih je dia pergi. i feel it now u know. no matter what, things have to change and i'm certain that this is really for good. hope she can make it. well, all the best in our life. besides, i have to face this since i always pray to god to give us (family) the happiness in this life and akhirat. amin. and i'm sure all of this will come true someday.

denali baby

it was 22 june. syia came from taiping to melaka since she had something to be settled for the graduation. then, she need to collect her transcript the next 2 days. so, she asked me to help her collect the transcript and i asked her to put the receipt (so i can collect it for her) inside my post box coz i was not home.

dipendekkan cerita, as i arrived home aku cepat-cepat tengok post box nak cek sebab syia ada tinggalkan duit sekali. then, i was so shocked when i see there's a parcel (hmm..dianggap parcel ke?boleh la kot. sukati je). cek punya cek. it was for me and i knew who posted it even the sender doesn't even mention the name. nama dia sebenarnya dah tertulis kat cd tu pun.

bukak-bukak je. aku dah jerit bila nampak ni..


this really made my day that day. seriusly. i was a bit out of mood that time and i was very thankful and glad with the cd. i love the cd. oh ya. and the card is lovely also. i love the writing and the word especially 'this was how i get to know you'



p/s: thank you so much, for knowing me.

day out with rahmah and zek

zek, rahmah and mocha

21 june. i finally met my bestest bestfriend, rahmah. she came all the wayfrom johor to melaka with zek just to meet me. it's been a year since we've met. last time pun dia yang datang ke melaka. aku ni apa la kan? bukan tak nak turun sana tpi duit tak mengizinkan.

that beautiful day, kitaorang tengok movie- jangan pandang belakang congkak. gila aku ketawa tak hengat dunia sampai menangis-nagis sebab lawak. then pegi jalan-jalan jap and on the way balik we all lepak minum and makan kat tesco.

diaorang balik hari. dapat jumpa kejap je. tapi ok la kan? berbaloi. thanks sebab datang babe. u really made my day. thanks to zek also sebab teman rahmah datang. da la belanja aku semuanya. thanks a lot.

changes

the days have been different lately. there's no more azra telling that the notebook is nice, no more syafik with his new hairstyle, no more khei telling azra this and that in class, no more subba and zetty at campus, no more syia to bring us lunch at places, no more aqilah in class as my talk buddy since we always be in the same group, ohh!! there's no more email from aqilah, no more sms from the others about assignments and stuffs, omg.. i don't delete them, i wish to keep it forever.no more dheepan and the others too. it's too much 'no more' in my list. friends, i miss u

and...

i'm certain that this time, things must be very different to me. the atmosphere, the environment, even though i'm still in mmu the same place like i used to be. yeah. i keep on telling myself that things change even without our bloody preparation.

anyhow, life must go on. i have to face this. and thinking what should i do after finished studying like the others make me feel even worse, i am panic and have this unease feeling. how should i put this? this feeling is awkward to me, i can't tell them and i'm not able to even express it.

new semester

The holiday’s going to be over soon. Guess it ended already yeah? I have like only three days for class next trimester/semester because I registered only 2 subjects for the semester and it’s like only 6 credit hours for me. Basically, I have like only 6 hours for classes every week. Which makes me feel like so silly for not taking that particular subjects in previous semester. Sigh. I should be grateful somehow because I don’t think I could make it if I had to take the 8 subjects. Last trimester was a nightmare man… like seriously! I can’t imagine how I would be if I ever take the 8 subjects. i didn't want to end up fail all the subjects taken. I took 6 subjects instead for previous trimester and it was like ‘I had enough’. No, I don’t simply do that decision. I asked people bout it. The issue was like really bothering me last time. Like my head is going to blast thinking of it. Really! I asked the lecturer and coordinator also and they were like saying ‘It is not a big deal to extend the semester if you think that you can’t make it though.’ Yes, I don’t have to push myself either to struggle for the 8 subjects since it’s like kinda a lot weyh. (tapi ye ke? it was like hell last trimester siot. i push myself like fcuking seriously nak mati and i struggled like no one could ever imagine i could did that shit, man). I asked friends and they also been telling me the same thing. It doesn’t matter what my decision is, I have to bare the risk. Ohh… God help me.

I tell myself not to regret on things, alright. Then, I know there’s always reason for everything that happens. If I were to take too much subjects I might failed one of them and it will be like so wasting time and money. I’m not like the others, I know I can’t fail any subjects coz the loan won’t pay me anymore and we are not able to pay the fees if I have to retake any of the subjects. The money we have will only sufficient for the 2 subjects left for me. I have to study hard.

While others were enjoying their night and day shopping and going places they love to go, I will always be beside my parents helping them at shop or resting at home. (tipu! ada gak la keluar cuma berbanding dari yang lain, masa aku terhad. bukan sebarang-sebarang leh keluar tak tentu masa). While others have big or special present from their parents like cars, pants, laptop or anything because they pass the exams, I will be beside the parents still-sharing the happiness and victory of mine. For me, that’s the best things ever. Anugerah terbaik untuk aku adalah restu, berkat doa mereka, teguran dan nasihat, juga kasih sayang mereka yang tak da sempadannya. (aww, I sounds poyo). Apa salahnya aku bantu mereka selagi terdaya. Aku sangat sedar mereka berhempas pulas membesarkan anak-anak. Kadang-kadang tak sanggup aku tengok. Aku harap dapat ringankan beban mereka satu hari nanti dan balas jasa mereka. Aku terdengar kat al-kuliyah, ustaz tu cakap ‘menunaikan satu permintaan kecil ibu bapa ibarat berpuasa sunat atau menunaikan sembahyang sunat selama setahun’.

i was fortunate indeed coz this time, my sister gets her salary and she gives me a treat at marrybrown. Well, despite the hardship I faced as compare to others, I still able to have fun in my own way. Some friends understand me totally. not to forget, the bf too.. we can still go dating. Perhaps if the parents have extra money, they allow me to have fun with friends. Sometimes I save some money to watch movies and spent time with friends. I can still go places I wanted to go, mungkin tak ke semuanya tapi ada lah sikit-sikit. rather than nothing. We planned it earlier so I can save some money for it. Example, I and friends are planning to go vacation since some friends had already finished study. Hopefully, jadi lah the vacation.

So, here I am, left with only 2 subjects for the last trimester studying in MMU, Melaka (hopefully. Amin). The subjects are Malaysian economy and one elective subject, small business management. The elective I registered is actually a major subject for entrepreneur students. I just simply want to try that subject particularly because other elective subjects for marketing students are not offered. Poor me. I’ve planned to take B2B or Sales Management for my elective.

Several pictures from previous semester.

with syafik and erin

with syia

with subba

me, poh lin, syafik and jules during retail exhibition

dramatari @ mmu

retail trip at kampung jawa: azra, khei, julie, juejue, me and syafik

kursus kahwin with juejue, azra, and syia. (eh? sem ni ke eh? lupa)

at career camp with GDO- subba, zetty and julie

roomate at the camp - syia, azra, zetty, subba, and julie

with syafik at lecturer's office. going to meet madam Z

with syafik at DP

with julie at pasar malam after the finance exam

with syafik at pasar malam

congrats babe sebab da grad. will surely miss u, Aqilah

azra and syafik at mahkota

our night class. strategic marketing

at the jetty with syafik and julie

with julie after the dinner- asam pedas, KL terbaik!

love this picture.

p/s: there's a lot more pictures that i wish to share but i'm having difficulties to make it. garhh~

another date to remember (d-t-r)

as usual. this is the picture he likes. though i dont like it

and this is the one i like

We finally met on 6^th June for after almost 3 months tak berjumpa. We were like spending time together watching movie, bowling (for the first time), makan-makan, chatting while having great coffee, and lots more. Perhaps, just like normal couple will do. Kinda miss him pulak now. Well, everyone have dreams to pursue and so do us. So, there are many other responsibilities to carry. I’m here in Melaka and he’s there at Kemaman. We believe in faith, jodoh. Ada jodoh tak kemana kan? Tak lari gunung di kejar.

SKIP!!

The dating this time, we went to Berjaya Time Square. I woke up early to take the bus since I forgot to buy the ticket earlier. Aduh. Plus it’s a school holiday and I believe the ticket mesti da sold out. Yes I’m right. Sampai je Melaka Sentral (MC), ticket transnasional yang available Cuma pukul 11 pagi. Maka, Rudy nak aku sampai dalam kul 11pg. So, I took another bus, Delima. Depart at 9am. Ok la tu. Sejam gak aku tunggu, sempat la sarapan with mama and along.

Di Time Square, ramai sangat orang. Paling ramai budak-budak yang baru naik. Terasa tua pula. Rudy suka bawa aku jalan-jalan shopping mall lain-lain, kalau boleh tak nak tempat yang sama berulang kali. Last time dia bawa ke mid valley, one utama, the curve, dll. Setakat ni, yang paling aku selesa and rasa boleh masuk ialah the curve. Rudy cakap next time kalau datang kl dia bawa ke sunway pyramid pula. Nanti kita try ice skating lak rudy eh?

Kejap je masa berlalu, aku amik bas balik ke Melaka around 9pm and arrived at 11pm. Bas berenti betul-betul depan kedai mama. So, that was it. Habis satu hari untuk weekend aku.

p/s: syg,if u read this.. i miss u. sorry for wrongs that i've committed.

i kinda try to finish reading the book. 'call me the breeze' for the hol. resuls for last semester pun dah keluar. Alhamdulillah. berkat usaha, doa dan restu family. sangat-sangat bersyukur dan happy sekarang.

MFD '09

the girls!

it's a candid picture for me. sebab orang lain semua ready.

preciousca-bella pun dtg. dia perform

sorry sayang. i like this picture. favorite picture of the day.kinda have to upload this. sorry to fir's gf also.

the committee for this event. we were trying to finished the bookmark.

The last day for final exam is on Saturday 30th May '09 and our e-commerce paper which is the last paper was quite challenging for me because I don’t get a chance to study really hard for the paper since I was busy handling the marketing farewell dinner- we,the committee called it MFD '09. I was assigned to do the bookmark as souvenir of marketing farewell dinner 2009. The dinner was held at our beloved lecturer's house, madam zaharah at ayer keroh. Her house is really gorgeous.

Well, as I tried to study for the paper my head keep on thinking ‘boleh siap ke aku punya book mark ni. Baru siap 10 keping ada lagi 50 keping nak buat ni’. Pastu, aku akan teruskan buat book mark. Time buat book mark pula, aku akan risaukan ‘sempat ke nak study 6 chapter ni untuk e-commerce. Dah sentuh semua chapter tapi macam still tak boleh paham je ni. Apa je yang aku study ni?’ then aku akan beralih untuk study pula. Camtu je la seterusnya.

Conflict dengan diri sendiri pastu tak pasal-pasal rupanya aku babitkan orang lain yang tak sepatutnya terlibat dengan perbalahan diri aku ni. Unfair. sorry to anybody yang rasa aku ni annoying.

p/s: will miss the friends yang dah abis study. how i wish i am too. well, life's goes on kan? the last day spent with u guys are so essential, priceless, precious, etc. lepas event kitaorang jalan-jalan, makan asam pedas, mc d gi pantai puteri sampai balik kul 6pg

Career Workshop

in the bus heading to asahan

1st day: the roomates

me, subba and syia

last day: with syafik otw back

The Career Workshop- this is the one that I’ve been waiting for! So excited to write about this.it happen on 8th May at asahan,jasin. the place is like in front of the place when i did the NS. so, it was like going back to your own place.

At first I don’t think that I’m able to go to this workshop because it cost about RM 200. i don't want to trouble mama and abah coz i knew if i wanted to, they'll definitely try their best to make me happy. I was very happy when mama tells me that she’ll surely try her best to give me the money to get involve with the camp. I was very grateful.

The best part is, subba and zetty will join us too. Dapat gak la spend about 3 days and 2 night together. i miss them so much. we don't spend much time together lately. things change, alright.

The roommate at the camp are syia, azra, Julie, zetty and subba. Overall, the workshop is very satisfying and I really enjoy it so much. Alhamdulillah. plus i gain essential knowledge there. glad-fully.

p/s: tu cuma sesetengah je gambar-gambar yang ada. lagipun tak dapat nak bergambar sangat sebab time buat activity tak boleh bawak handphone, leceh. well, ada rakan yang dapat snap picture aku sedang tidur. sila la cari kalau jumpe ye. hint* nama blog dia syia lew lew.

Retail Exhibition

our baby- ROSE MALLOW project

front view of rose mallow

with the lecturer, madam azlin

Wah.. The semester break has begun! Just 2 weeks for me to prepare for the next battle. Perhaps and hopefully the final battle to face. rasa macam baru semalam masuk mmu, macam baru semalam aku tinggalkan zaman persekolahan. Time flies, my life changes even don’t

feel like really ready yet. But still… it’s beyond my control. I used to hate it, but now I kinda feel like get used with it and try to fit in and be as flexible as I could. With God will ya…

Ok! This entry is about the retail exhibition. Aduhai.. how time flies kan? Cepat betul, last time sibuk dengar azra, qilah bebel-bebel reminding me and asking me when to do the library model. We always postpone it. i mean me, syafik and julie since we are in one group for this project. Ada je benda nak buat, ada ja halnya. Guess, when we started to do the model? 2 days before the retail exhibition. Gile? Yes we are...

the groupmate with our bestie, subba.

with azra at her library

The first day buat model tu with Julie. Obviously, it looks awful and really can tell that the library model is a last minute work. Even I myself can’t even look at it. Haha. Sori Julie, we had tried our best kan? Time tu masing-masing buntu dengan masalah. Keje nak selesai cepat dengan FYP lagi kan? So.. memang outcome nya akan jadi camtu. but this moment that I’ll miss the most. Buat keje last minit.

Early on the second day itself, Julie came to my house and we tried to finish the model ASAP. Julie hasn’t done her FYP yet and we have to burn the softcopy of FYP into cd. Evening, she got back and syafik came to see the progress.

Guess what? He got shocked. Memang cepat dah siap tapi sangat serabai.haha. Then, we decided to re-do the library.. ya! I was damn tired but as I worried that ours will be the ugliest and serabai-est model, so I agree je lah. Fortunately, my FYP is almost done.

The whole day trying to finished up the model. Sleepy but what to do, kena gak siapkan kalau tak, nak tayang apa kat exhibition tu nanti. Hari pertama aku buat dengan Julie berdua sebab syafiq ade hal kena balik kl, hari kedua pula aku buat dengan syafiq. Julie datang pagi tu then she need to compile her FYP since the due date for FYP tu same date with the retail exhibition. It was damn tension. Even aku dah wat awal-awal sikit tu pun kelam kabut gak, mana nak print mana nak burn cd la apa. Gile kusut hidup time tu.

BUT.. it all paid off. After the hard work dan tak tidur langsung tu….sempat gak we all settle everything on time. Alhamdulillah, and we did very well for that ‘last minute project’. thanks to madam azlin and fellow judges. Seriously, I didn’t expect that, doing that crazy thing and get great marks in return. Really worth it. Bayangkan la betapa cuaknya time tu, risau takut tak sempat siap je library model tu. Again, how time flies huh? It’s like yesterday hearing the mumbling, worrying about the undone library since everyone had started and our group is still zero, thinking of the date of exhibition which is the same day with FYP submission, and so forth. Now? I’ve passed it all. Sekelip mata. Speechless I am…

syafik and julie

me, doing the write-up for Rose Mallow Project